Her Cinderella Story

2011-03-29T04:55:00.000-04:00

Woo I have left my blog to rot.
I don't know why I didn't blog for so long.
Sigh my life is so stagnant and boring. That's why I can't generate exciting content.
So sad. My life is so mundane kay.
No super epic adventures of any sort.
Actually I did do something relatively exciting. But I can't say it here!
Coz right, if my parents stumble upon my blog then I'm screwed.
I didn't do anything bad. Just... I think my parents will not be very happy with it lol.

Wait till I find a way to tell them. Then I'll talk about it here.
It's super exciting I guarantee you !

Anyways. I am thinking about investing in a good camera. So my blog won't be so damn boring and plain. I want to take pictures of everything. My face, my nails, my phone, my boyfriend, my friends, my laptop, exciting things in my life (none lol) and stuff. Haha then even if I don't have a life, I can pretend I do :P

Okay, just to appear not so boring, I am going to randomly end with a picture of me and Domi. Just coz he is so super tall. Why do I keep getting shorter and shorter beside him?
This old lady who works with me said: "EH Dominic is so tall and you are so small. He can carry you with one hand heehee". -______-

Happy Valentine's Day!

2011-02-14T02:54:00.003-05:00

Omg LOL so I was going through my blog archives, and I am totally amused! Read my old entries, and saw old pictures, and bahaha. Time really flies by like nobody's business. And people do change so fast. SEE I SHOW YOU GUYS.

I saw old pictures of me and Domi, and bahahahaha. Ok I stop talking nao and hopefully let the pictures amuse you like it did to me.

WHEN WE JUST STARTED DATING. Circa September 2009 !!! Look at how short my hair was and how long his was. Now mine is over my boobs (like I always wanted) and his is super short and ham-sum.

WAH BIANG I have been going out with this man for almost 2 years.

TIME, y u no go slower?!

We look like kids. Look at his long shiny tresses. *whips back and forth*

Merry Kurisumasu '09. I went to his aunt's house on Christmas Eve. I know this is not a picture of us, but I LOVE THIS PICTURE. That baby is his little cousin Tyler. And they were sitting together, watching TV super seriously. Uber cute wanna melt.

Then he dyed his hair blue, but it turned into this turquoise looking colour like mermaid. And my hair grew longer! <3

Prom 2010. This is like... in June. ACTUALLY MY HAIR WOULD BE SO MUCH LONGER. But somewhere in the beginning of 2010, I went and cut my hair! Stupid or not!

I wanted my hair to be très long for prom so I decided to let it grow. But I got bored of it and went and cut it! So angry! Stupid itchy bored mind.

But since then I've never cut my hair :D

So now its quite long. But pisses me off during winter time cuz it keeps flapping in the wind and hitting my face. Then when the wind is very strong, it wraps around my face like a blindfold so I can't see when crossing the road! Dangerous ok.

Summer 2010 baby! Went camping with friends for the first time in mai life.

Very fun :)

Fat thighs crushing poor man. BUT HE DESERVES IT. He buys me lots and lots of food. Of course I would get fat right?! Then he calls me a fattie. Not fair at all. But there's nothing I can do so I just sit on him. When I sit on him, he loses weight lolol cuz I am that heavy.

I super adore this picture! :P

We were both drunk. It was when we were camping. Night time.

He will vehemently deny that he is drunk, but he is! Loook!

But so cute. I loved camping with him. Ok I love sleeping with him kay.

He is soooo comfy and warm and like..... I love huggles with him.

But I think he hates it cuz I always squash him and cut his oxygen supply. One sided love! :'(

Then he cut his hair! REVAMP dun dun dun! bamf.

Honestly when he was going to cut his hair, I was a bit scared. Like, when we first met, he had long hair. When we started liking each other, he had long hair. When we fell in love, he had long hair. Domi = long hair.

It was part of him, and part of myself. Cuz it was that identity of his that differentiated him, and that was who I fell in love with.

But when the hair was all gone, I was like =O

Super hot max.

His short hair brought out his features (huge brown eyes, super nais nose) and I was like WAH WHAT IS THIS. So yeah. Loved it.

Then we went to Niagara Falls! First vacation together <3 Got super sick and he took care of me. Even when I was barfing my lungs out and looked like a horse's carcass.

TROLOLOLOL. So guess what? I love this dude, and I'm psyched to spend my second Valentine's Day with crazy here :)

TROLOLOL we lost weight. Go compare old pics ahahaha. And now we got even skinnier WTF. We eat like the devil's spawn.
HAIH now I just jinxed it. Watch, tomorrow I will become morbidly obese.

Happy Valentine's Day to all you lovebirds out there :) <3

And to those of you who don't believe in this over commercialized day that companies milk to suck the money dry out of lovestruck consumers, rebel! Angst! Stand for what you believe in!

But share the love all day everyday.
Just enjoy the immense pink everywhere k. Not everyday can you walk into a mall, and almost every store has a section decked in pink and sparkles. :')

Gong Xi Fa Cai & follow your dreams.

2011-02-03T15:17:00.001-05:00

It's chu yi right now, the first day of Chinese New Year.
And I know it's inauspicious to swear or speak of death or anything of the sort.
But I just came across one of the most infuriating thing of life on Facebook and I need to rant.

Okay so basically, my friend's brother got into Cawthra High School, which is like... the top-notch art school here. Only talented people get in. So naturally, my friend is proud of her brother and announced it on fb. I was looking at the comments following it right, and for some reason, it was all angry comments directed to this one fucker I know.

So I looked at his comment.

" arts school lol tell him have fun having no future "

Fucking prick.
I rarely get angry, and you people know that. The only times I do get angry is when my family, friends and loved ones get hurt. Or when someone shoots down another person's dreams. Fucking hell. I don't usually succumb to hate comments on fb, but I just had to. Wrote a long ass angry comment, which I hope my future boss never ever finds out about.

I don't know what he is going into in life. I think business or accounting or something, if I'm not mistaken. OH bigshot huh. But just because he thinks he is going into some kind of "elite" shit, don't fucking assume that you can adopt that "i'm-more-superior-than-thou" attitude. Unlike you, sadfuck, people have dreams. You need to realize that. And I don't care how much of a dickwad you are, you don't shoot down dreams like that.

I also know he is homophobic. Fucker. Probably has some kind of sick fetish that includes giving a horse a bj or something. Forever alone. I don't know what the fuck his problem is. Maybe he's just a lonely boy who needs an outlet to release, therefore his dumbass behavior.

But yeah. Not everyone's sole ambition in life is to wallow in money, you soulless cunt. Yes money makes the world go round. But with that dumbfuck attitude of yours, you're just gonna drown alone and lonely underneath your cold hard cash.
Some people actually have dreams and aspirations. So shut the fuck up and grow the fuck up.

Yes our society needs big business people. Good for you for going into this field where you will help society in various ways. (But businesspeople + cockface arrogant attitude = hated everywhere). But going around imposing your stupid opinions on someone else's happiness is really uncalled for and unnecessary. Yes you have an opinion, but it's degrading and makes you sound like an ignorant asshole.

Excerpt from his stupid comment.

"how do arts students even contribute to society? scientists do research, business people facilitate the economy, police+military+etc provide safety to the pu...blic.... arts students serve fries?? lololololol. but i guess u can always go to teacher's college and become teachers to contribute to society."

I just can't even.

I hope one day he chokes on his own ignorant arrogance.

FYI, I have friends and family who are art students, and they are now happily prancing away with successful careers like interior designing, publishing, PR, FBI (yes the FBI), and Day Stock Trading. All filthy rich.

Fuck you Thomas Kwon. Stay away from my friends and their aspirations in life. Yes you are entitled to your selfish, moronic opinions. But watch, it'll just make people angry, you'll just get more haters. And you'll end up forever alone.

Don't even know why the hell I got so angry for. He's just a sad sick fuck who imposes his stupid opinions on people for attention.

****

Okay rant over. Haven't been so angry in a long time.
Anyways, parents gave me my first angpao ^___^

Happy Chinese New Year, people.
Sigh a bit sad and emo whenever this time of year rolls around.
I miss the whole cny "feel" of back home. It was so loud and festive, with my crazy relatives and the abundance of fooood.

Oh welll.
Going for sushi buffet with my family and bf on Saturday.
So excited! :)

Sorry for the lack of photos.
I myself find it so sian when I see no photos here.
So imma parade around in my pretty new year clothes and take lots of pictures of food and people.

So wait for it! :)
Happy CNY people. May you live long and prosper trololol.

10 things I hate about you.

2011-01-26T22:56:00.000-05:00

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much that it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate the way you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

Hell Week #1

2011-01-25T01:38:00.000-05:00

Sorry I haven't updated since the Niagara trip. Busy busy busy.

Had a psychology test today, which I probably failed.

Five Writer's journals I have to hand in tomorrow.

Politics assignment due Thursday (haven't started trololol).

History essay due Friday fts!

So much to do, so little time.

Eh, actually got lots of time, but I have already accepted that my procrastination is going to be the death of me one day. A true procrastinator never gets anything done until the last minute. Really sucks kay. I really wanna be all motivated and productive, but I have zero drive. The only motivation I get is from deadlines. You say dead meat or not?

How am I going to survive life?

But on the bright side of life, loook! Chinese New Year is coming soon, and errbody is getting into the spirit!

Went to Chinese grocery store last week and saw this!

Made me sooo uber excited for CNY!

But that lion head damn scary. Looks like your boyfriend's fat head!

But soo many awesome cny deals going on. Look, 2 boxes of chocolate for 5 bucks only.

Major love.

And anyone Chinese reading this, please please go ask your mommy to buy that pink Hello Kitty hong bao please. Then, invite me to your house for cny.

I forced my mother to get a packet, but she didn't budge. Just cuz it's pink and kawaii and expensive. >=(

Nevermind, next time when I'm married, imma buy lots and lots of these pink Hello Kitty hong baos for cny. I will only give out these kawaii pink ones, and not those boring traditional red ones booo.

For little boys, I will.....make sure I find some cool ones with like, Transformers or Pokemon or something on it muaha. I will be the cool ~~auntie~~ adult who gives kawaii hong baos to kids. ^_^

Okay super short post I know. Sorrrrry.
But I have so much to do, and I am craving instant noodles right now.

So I am going to make a pack of unhealthy instant mee nao, and then I will continue my assignments then maybe sleep for a bit ok sounds super good.

BAI I WILL BE BACK SOON AFTER THIS WEEK IS DONE :')

p/s: Hahahahahaha kawaii not?! Found this adorable picture on tumblr and showed it to Domi, and he said: "LMAO IT'S ME AND YOU :P" Hontōni kawaii ~

He said I'm the crazy nibbling one and he's the one screaming in shock.

Hahahaha makes sense, cuz we have this thing where I LOVE to smell him. I have this fetish thing going where I'd just sit there and sniff his face for a long long time. But I cannot resist. I dunno why I love doing that. I think he smells like a baby omg <3. Sometimes I will nibble too.

He said it's not normal. He's never seen other girls doing that to their bf before so I am like ultra weird. He puts up with it. But I think he secretly enjoys it a lot la. Why else did he stay with me for so long trololol. I am scary, he should have ran away a long time ago. <3

Ok I am getting so sleepy I better finish my work soon bleh.

The end of 2010

2011-01-04T01:35:00.001-05:00

So I am back at school, and I am bored out of my mind.
Sigh I am so not school-material, I should just drop out and become a nomad.

I am such a shame to the Asian community.
I'm sorry! :'(

Oh well, now I am going to blog about my trip to Niagara trip, and I am super pissed off because pictures I took on my bb is not showing up when I try uploading them! :'(
Why am I a noob? :'(

BTW this is going to be a long entry. Just saying.

Anyways, I will be stealing pictures from Gabriela because she is a much more dedicated traveler than I am. She actually takes pictures, and has a pretty good camera.
I SUCK! I was going to be a good traveler/blogger and take pretty pictures of everyone, but my camera sucks shitty balls, and I got pissed off at the pretty lights turning up as specks of shitty orbs on my camera, so I gave up and happily let Gabby be the photographer of the trip :'(

I need to invest in a good camera. :'(
Preferably a dslr, like Bart's which can take pictures like this one:

My boyfriend's eye.
Pretty right?! I took that picture, by the way*proud*, and again, I hate white people and their effortlessly gorgeous peepers :'(
Just look at those lashes. No matter how much mascara I pile on, I will never be able to achieve that natural tinge of a curl.

Yeah okay, so Gabii, if you are reading this, sorry I had to steal your pictures. It is all your photo cred though :D thank youu babe.

The ceiling of the Hilton Niagara Falls! Gorgeous.
Lol dunno what those upside down cone things are though. What if it falls?!

Trolololol, Domi looking so excited to check in. Hahaha this is one of my favourite pictures of him. So cute!!! *PINCH*
I had a vision of injecting his face with something, making it super chubby and soft so I can pinch it until it is red like a tomato.
LOL yah I know I have issues.

God-sent. 8)

DUN DUN DUN

This is Nightmare's Fear Factory, this walk-through haunted house attraction in Niagara.

Had so much fun. I was such a pussy though. I closed my eyes and hid behind Domi at the very first sign of "danger". Siiiiigh.

My boyfriend and I cannot be any more different.

He's like the black to my pink.

I'm like the light to his darkness.
I run at the whiff of non-existent danger (aka paranoia), and he walks into danger. -___-
Look.

LOLOLOLOL.
From left to right.

Alquinn: Omg what's that!

Natasha: Oh noes it's coming! D=

Gabii: *hides*

Marlo: YIKES.

Me: *hidden beyond view. nothing but a mere lump of white*

Domi: Weeeeeeee 8) ~

LOL that picture cracks me up so much. We are sooo different.
Apparently the only time Domi felt a hint of fear was when a machete suddenly came out from nowhere to his neck. See, I didn't even see that because I was busy screaming in terror, eyes closed and all.

I don't know why there's this huge space here. I tried fixing it. Bah. Whatever just scroll down. No scary pictures I swear.

Marlo in his sick ride.

Michael Jackson IS NOT AMUSED.

There was this creepy room in the wax museum with moulds of celebrity heads in different colours. Somemore, they were kinda glow in the dark, effin scary!
AND their eyes were all closed, which made it even creepier. What if one of the heads opened its eyes, and all the others follow suit?!!!
Where to run??
We'd die in this room of coloured glowing heads!

YOUR BOYFRIEND! :D <3

Marlo's boyfriend ^^ Gabii is mine. >=)

Hanky-panky in Dracula's cape.

YA I KNOW! CREEPY!

James Bond and bevy of women. LOL he looks like he doesn't wanna be there T______T

Natasha puts her hands up in the air sometimes.

Lmao attack of the horny boyfriends.
That is Madonna underneath them, by the way.

LOLOLOL LOOK. No we are not creeps. It's a wax figure inside one of the toilet stalls.
How we know? We looked. Gabii, Nat and I peeked under. It was wax for sure.
Kay, maybe we are a bit creepy.

At night time, we went walking around the streets of Niagara.
It was so gorgeous. The lights, sights, and smells were beautiful, and people were huddled together because of the cold. It was such a cozy feeling. I miss it there.

Then we went to the Fun House where there was a tilting room. Very fun.
LOL fucking hilarious.
Look at our noob faces! <3 i love these people.

I love this guy to death.
You know what this guy did?
On the last night of the trip, I got sick.
Very, very sick.
I started retching and throwing up like no tomorrow, and I was in excruciating pain.
I spent the night crouched on the bathroom floor. It was so weird.
When I was crouched down, my tummy would be fine. But once I stood up, I would immediately throw up again. >__<
So i literally couldn't stand that night.

But my boyfriend took care of me.
He made me feel like the most precious thing in the world despite my illness.

Like, if I ever doubted that he loved me, it would have been clear that night that he does.
LOL you can stop reading if it's too cheesy, but I am really touched kay.
At one point of the night, I ran to the bathroom gagging and making BLEARGHHHHHHHH sounds, and he followed me, worry deep in his face.

I threw up into the toilet, and my hair was flinging everywhere. He immediately crouched beside me, hugging me tight, and holding up my hair, brushing any stray hairs from my face, saying "you okay baby?" every 5 seconds.

I was disgusting that night. And i felt like the ugliest person ever. Ugly and contagious. But he hugged me to sleep :'( It was one of the best sleeps I ever had, despite the various times I had to wake up to throw up. Knowing that someone who actually cares so much was right beside me really comforted me, and I teared up several times because I was touched.

There was one point where he put his head on my waist and lay down, hugging me, and I felt like nothing else mattered. Then he kissed my waist and I drifted off to sleep.
I was in so much pain, but all I remember feeling is the love and concern I received.

My friends were so amazing as well.
On the way home, they carried my luggage and dirty laundry :') They didn't allow me to carry anything except for my handbag because I was sick. So sweet. Plus, my damn luggage was the heaviest of all *ashamed*. And they kept asking if I was okay, reminding me to see a doctor as soon as we got back. I had never felt so loved before. Well, obviously there's my family. But I meant, by friends. People who have no blood ties with me.
They took care of me so well, and I really, really appreciate them.

Thank you God for blessing me with such an amazing family, boyfriend and friends. I am literally surrounded by beautiful souls, and I really do appreciate all of it. <3

Anyways, I really enjoyed the trip. Yes, even the sick part, because I was so pampered and well taken cared of :3 and I cannot wait for summer to arrive, so I can go vacationing with awesome human beings again!

Okay I'm done this entry.
I have more pictures on my blackberry, but because technology hates me, I cannot seem to upload them! Imma find out the root of the problem and then maybe update this post later :)
Tata. I hate waking up early in the morning. I am not cut out for school!

Happy Two Oh Double One

2011-01-03T01:12:00.001-05:00

Happy New Year '11 everybody!
Hope you had a fun-filled NYE, and have an amazing year ahead! :D

I had a fun New Year's eve all right.
Didn't get stupidly drunk like last year, but still had good clean fun :)

My family and I went to boyfriend's house for a family party, and it was awesome!
I love his family, they're all uber fun and crazy, yet so warm and loving.
Anyways, school is starting tomorrow and I am depressed.

I miss my boyfriend, I wanna sleeeeep all day, I don't wanna go to school.
I sound like an emo psycho bitch, and I don't care, because I am suffering from post-Christmas & New Year depression.

But yah. I need to sleep soon. My whole sleeping pattern is skewed and I need to adjust it to its normal glory.

And my next post will be about my Niagara trip lol and Christmas + New Years!

It will be a fun post not to be missed x)
Check back soon, ninjas. :)

Last Christmas I gave you my food

2010-12-27T11:15:00.000-05:00

It's that time of year again!
After the huge hustle and bustle, anticipation and excitement, shopping and planning, and all the cooking and fussing for Christmas, it is over.

Just like that, and it is overrr.

How majorly depressing.

Before Christmas, I get so uber happy and excited I turn into like, the second coming of Santa Claus!

And all these feelings of ulta-excitement are channeled into this one day - actually two, Christmas Eve is a big deal. Sometimes, even bigger than Christmas day itself - that when Christmas is over, it's like this overwhelming feeling of gloomy anticlimax.

Then the mourning phase starts as I moan and yearn for Christmas.
At this time of year, my favourite song is "Where are you Christmas" by Faith Hill.

I actually get so terribly sad, no kidding.

Then when New Year approaches, my spirits get somewhat lifted again.
But the anticipation and festive preparation is no where near that of Christmas. :(

For people who are happy, it can be a beautiful occasion; reflecting, celebrating the good times of the past year, and looking forward to what the next one holds.

For people who are sad, New Year's can be quite darn depressing.
I remember a certain New Year, not very long ago, when I had one of the saddest New Year's celebration ever.

I just came out of a disastrous relationship with a catastrophic end. I was emotionally mangled, and so vulnerable to fresh bouts of tears at every thought of the guy.

I know this is cliche and emo, but I still somewhat remember the pain of that night.
My family and I were celebrating; singing and dancing to the countdown show thing on TV. Everyone was excited and psyched out of their minds; the adults getting tipsy while the children played like there was no tomorrow.

And then there was me.
I pretended to enjoy myself, forcing myself to join in the joy and the laughter.
But fresh tears kept stinging my eyes, and that burning sensation in my throat never left.

At every memory and imaginary reference to him, my heart literally ached, and I had to turn away to wipe away tears. During the countdown, I kept going back to that last moment, when it ended.

And at the stroke of midnight, I was a goner.
I literally felt the terrible pain near my chest region (no confirmed not a heart attack), and broke down into pathetic sobs.

I disguised the tears into those of joy to my family, and they called me emotional -__-

But yah.
That was my sad New Year story.
But last year was amazingggg.

Me: Omg midnight coming! New Year's kiss babyy
Boyfriend: No no no, we kiss WHEN the countdown starts, so we'll be kissing through the year!

<3

Kawaii i love him.

Anyways, I hope you guys had an amazing Christmas, and go on to have an epic year ahead.
2011 ftw! :3

And for a few friends who are going through rough patches in life, I wish you nothing but the best, and I sincerely hope things will be better.
Emo and mostly pessimistic as I am, I really do believe that every after storm, there is a gorgeous rainbow. Sometimes it appears like that *snap fingers*, and sometimes you just have to look around a bit.

Happy Post Christmas, and Happy New Year, you beautiful people you.

P/s: I am off to Niagara Falls with the boyfriend, and a few other friends.
I appear so calm and composed right now, but omfg I am about to burst with kiddish excitement.

I will update with photos and stories from the falls, I promise!
BYE WISH ME LUCK <3

Cuh-lubbin

2010-12-15T23:23:00.001-05:00

Right now, I am at the boyfriend's university, waiting for him as he writes his Law exam.

Typing very slow because I can't get used to his laptop keyboard bah.

Fuck I accidentally deleted everything I typed. Thank God for the undo button.

Anyways, since I have nothing to do, I am going to blog about something that has been on my mind for a while now.

Hookay. Soooo about 2 months ago, I went clubbing. Sort of.

It was a Halloween pub thing, so we had to dress up.

I went as a nurse :)

I know what you're thinking: "SLUTTTT"

But people said I looked like Nurse Joy from Pokemon lol.

Ahaha so cute, how to be slutty? x)

Anyways, it was my first time going to a pub and while it was very fun and scary at the same time, I definitely learned a lot more about myself that night:
I am a slut and I can really grind.

Lol jkjk.

It is honestly quite the opposite.

I have come to realize that while I enjoy crazy dancing with close friends, I am definitely not a "mingler".

It was crowded and stuffy, and when I lost sight of my friends, I felt lost and awkward.

I'm not going to lie, a lot of random guys approached me. Some politely asked if I wanted to dance. But a majority of them just came up to me and started grinding and touching, and it made me uber uncomfortable.

I am okay with dancing like a whore with my boyfriend, or close close friends.

And I do like meeting new people and making new friends. People who know me well will know that I'm a generally bubbly, happy person.

But when strangers come up and start gyrating against my ass, I have to admit that my bubbly personality immediately pops and I am transformed into this prudish square who will do anything to escape their loose pelvises and raging hormones.

That night, I not only realized how much I love my boyfriend, but how much of a homebody I really am.

I have lots of friends who are attached, but still frequent clubs and dance provocatively with members of the opposite sex.

I have nothing against this, don't get me wrong.

It just made me realize how much of a "homey" I am.

See, I always knew I was an awkward child to a certain extent.

Even as a child, I used to feel out of place at crowded parties, and wish I was at home with my mom. Lol so noob.

Then, the older I got, the more extroverted I got.

I became loud and obnoxious and my friends and family sometimes question my sanity.

But I always knew that that introverted, quiet child was always somewhere in me.

I just never knew how much.

But that night as I was dancing, running away from creepers (yes I was literally running away from some people because they were damn aggressive. Like, I politely reject them and they start grinding even more vigorously wtf), a huge part of me wished I was at home, or snuggling in bed with the boyfriend.

Lolol what a loserrrrr.

It was 1am, and he was probably sound asleep. But all I could think of was him, and how much I wished he was here.

No no, I wished I was in his bed, cuddling.

Right there and then, as the guilt threatened to overwhelm me, it struck me that I was doomed to forever be a boring homegirl who prefers to snuggle in bed with chicken soup and a tear-inducing movie rather than wildly dancing my night away like the cool people.

When I got home, all smelly and tired and traumatized from all the ass grabbing, I sent Domi a friggin long-ass text, telling him how much I love him and how guilty I felt *cheesy*.

And he was like "awww you have nothing to be guilty about though baby" .

Which is true. I have nothing to be guilty about.

I didn't cheat, I didn't touch other guys inappropriately, hell I even ran away from many of them.

Omg I am such a killjoy. I think most of them hate me now.

But I don't know why I felt so filthy.

When the guys started grinding and touching me, all I could think of was my bf, and I felt so so dirty. I know it's nothing wrong, really. I feel like a huge super duper boring prude right now, but all I could think of was: "I have a boyfriend. This is wrong."

And when I told them that I had a boyfriend, many of them said something along the lines of

"So what? He's not here, he's not going to know, let's have fun babe".

And I got angry.

Which is unusual. Ask people who know me. I never get angry. Ever.

But that pissed me off, and I actually yelled a lot that night. Which is a feat, because I never yell. Ever.

Then when they grabbed, the running began. And that's also a surprise. Because I never run. EVER. LOL.

But the fact that they were initiating for me to have fun with them behind my boyfriend's back made me mad. And I kept asking myself why the fuck I was there.

But yah.

I refrained from talking too much about this to anyone because I felt like such a killjoy. I know lots of fun people who have so much fun dancing at clubs and loosening up to awesome music and new people.

I also know that a lot of girls would grind with random guys, because it's really all fun and harmless. They also find it flattering that so many guys approach them.

And then there's me.

To be honest, I was very excited for that night. It was my first time clubbing. Woohoo. I was also worried that no guys would ask me to dance. At the beginning, most people there were somewhat reserved and everyone only danced with people they knew. But as the night went on, people started loosening up, and hormones went wild. And the grinding started.

And when they approached me to dance (wasn't even dancing okay, it was more of like a gross, aggressive mating call eff) , I backed away.

My boyfriend is very open, and he wouldn't mind me dancing with other guys, I know.

But it was my conscience, I guess.

That awkward, introverted child in me (or old conservative granny, i dunno) was rearing to leave the place and go running home to cook a huge pot of warm stew, put on a chick flick and snuggle under the covers.

Okay so glad I got that off my chest.
I am not a prude! I enjoy dancing too. Especially with people close to my heart lol.
I'm just really uncomfortable with strangers all up my grill.

And I guess, my idea of a good time is not dancing with sweaty people in a dark, crowded room, but just hanging out with good friends + cuddlefest with Domehh.

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Anyways to abruptly digress, if Domi and I had a baby right..... guess what it would look like?!
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Kawaii not?!! ♥

Hohoho

2010-12-13T02:19:00.002-05:00

Last exam tomorrow; French!!
Time to self-destruct and disappear from the face of the earth.

I am so excited and depressed at the same time right now.

I am so damn psyched because it's my last exam, therefore I am THIS close to enjoying my Christmas break muahaha.
And also because Christmas is my favourite time of year, and I am so excited to give (and receive) the awesome prezzies I got for my favourite peoplez.
+ Boyfriend's birthday + trip to Niagara Falls + Christmas + New Years woohoo.

But I am also semi-depressed because it's French tomorrow, and I am going to fail.
I am horrible at learning new languages. I have to admit that I used to be really, really good at languages when I was younger. In elementary school, I used to ace all my English and Malay tests and exams, and I pwned people in spelling/essay competitions.

Even just 2 years ago, I was awesome in Chinese school. Not the best compared to some Taiwanese born people and all, but still. Wrote pretty impressive Chinese stories (lolol I had to write one about how I prepared for exams baha Asian people and their essay topics), and I even won a Chinese public speaking contest thingy.

Seeeee how awesome I was at languages. Keyword: was.

Now I suck shit. My boyfriend has been teaching me Portuguese words and phrases, and I can't remember them to save my life! :'(

And I stupidly took a French course in University, thinking I still had my awesome language absorbing abilities. But fml, I succcck.
I think French is a beautiful language, and I wish I was fluent.
But damn, I find it so difficult please.

People say English and Chinese are harder to learn, but omg, in the French language right, even objects and places have genders!

Ps did you know that the library is a she, while a laboratory is male!

Like whoa, it's already difficult enough to discern the genders of certain human beings, but now they French people be asking me to tell from female objects to male objects; too much!

But a lot of my classmates are super good at French, man.
And they're all beginners too. WHY?
Well from what I see, they're all very hardworking and determined >__<

They study so hard, and I'm like max loafting. Maybe that's why.
Sigh sux2bmii.
I thought like all the previous languages I learned, I could just prance around, do nothing and still get great marks.

True story kay. Not gonna pretend to be modest here, cuz I really used to be really good at languages. My teachers told me I had a very powerful command of languages, and it was my forte.
And I really did nothing. I never studied for English or Chinese tests, but still got really good marks. Never prepared for any writing competitions, and still won a number of them.

Sigh thought I could do the same with French, but look at me now.

Wallowing in misery and regret.
See I can't even say that in French without having to consult a dictionary.
Sad!

Okay anyways, digressed too much.
Second reason why I am so sad is because I am officially broke!
Like, no lie. I know some people who complain that they're broke and poor, but they secretly have a stash of money in their bank accounts!

But I'm like broke, for reals.
Christmas shopping and other things have left me with nothing to my name but the clothes on my back.
Lol dramatic but oh man, I really went overboard this year.

Le sigh. Santa I just want money from you this year. That is all. Promise I will be nice.

Okie, I have to go now.
Exam in 6 hours obigahhh. I am a dead man walking.

Kay right now imma be all emo and dark.
Then tomorrow after the exam, heck care my empty bank account. I will be so flopping happy that exams are done, imma abuse my boyfriend.

Muahaha our tickle wars are so brutal I tell you.
But yah I will be the happiest girl on Earth despite my gross lack of money.
Christmas, Domi's birthday, Niagara trip, here I come.

P.s. If you wanna get me Christmas gifts, just give me money wrapped in pretty paper. I will be so so appreciative and thankful.

Christmas, I am so ready. Bring it.

2010-12-07T10:38:00.000-05:00

I have to sit for my first exam in.... less than two hours.

Why am I not ready?!

Oh my Lord, let the Christmas break start already, please? :'(
I can't wait.

Anyways, I need to update my blog soon. I want to.
So please, exams, please please pretty please be over soon.

Then I will blog and blog and blog into the wee hours of the morning.
And catch up with Glee and Gossip Girls and Vampire Diaries etc.
And I'd bake for errrrrbody I know, and I'd try making home-made icecream.
And I'd take lots of nice pictures, and I'd bring the parentals out for sushi buffet, and and and OH MAN damn you exams.

15

2010-11-24T03:03:00.001-05:00

Happy Fifteen Months, you :)
Thank You for everything; putting up with my whirlwind of complicated female emotions, satisfying my all-consuming hunger (read: all the money you spent on buying me food to keep me happy), and knowing exactly what to say/do to make my day.

I Love You, big guy. My very own grizzly bear to cuddle.

Anyways, I am so psyched! December is almost here, and I am so very excited.
I love that feeling where everyone is gearing up for the holiday season, and the Christmas carols we hear everywhere. Love love love Christmas songs. And I cannot wait for the school break. I am so unmotivated to do anything, I just want to sit here and rot.

Then there is boyfriend's birthday :D
I still have to think of what to get him, although he already told me like 394728347823 times not to get him anything.

And oooh, planning a trip with him to Niagara Falls!!! How exciting!

Yah, I love Christmas so much, and I adore preparing for Christmas, but once it's over, I get so depressed. What with having to go back to school, and take down the Christmas lights, and radio stations ceasing to play Christmas songs, it's so damn disheartening.

But this year, I have something else to look forward for! *apart from New Years, that is.
We're planning a getaway with a few close friends, and I am beyond excited !

Not only because I get to see the falls illuminated by beautiful lights, but like, this is my virgin trip with friends, and it is so exhilarating!
I usually go on trips with my family, and my parents pay and do everything, so I basically just tag along and be fat.

But this time, it will just be us reckless adolescents responsible for everything.
We've already booked the rooms, so that's step one down! :D
Then we're going to arrange transportation, plan our itinerary, shop for food to bring there, and actually go on the trip without parental supervision!

Wow I dunno about them, but I feel so grown up. I just really, really, hope everything goes smoothly!
Cannot wait. Literally bouncing on my seat as I type this. I am that excited.

Lookie! Who wouldn't be excited to be spending 3 days and 2 nights with the bf and some close friends near such a gorgeous natural landmark?!

And we are going to be staying in the Hilton, which overlooks the gorgeous falls <3

Okay lah, I admit, this picture of the hotel is not very flattering, but hey, look its tall >.>

And it's the Hilton, so it better be damn posh kay.
And no, before you think we're a bunch of spoiled, rich kids who waste away at big hotels, nope. Far from that.

We're just a bunch of stressed up university kids looking to get away from the stress, and wanting to spend some quality time with the people close to us.

AND all the expenses on this trip will be covered by our own money. So yeah. We're paying for our own enjoyment kay.

I found a picture of the pool in the Hilton Niagara Falls, and the fat little spoiled girl in me squealed in delight. LOOK AT THE SPINNY SPIRALLY WHITE AWESOMENESS.

LIKE, where does the slide even start from ??! Our hotel rooooms?
So exciting!! Except I don't think anyone is going to want to slide into any bodies of water with me at the end of December, when everyone is freezing their asses off.

So I'll just have to look T___T

Oh, and for those of you who don't know, my previous phone snapped and died.
It is so sad. I actually have a picture of the poor little bugger, but too lazy to find & upload it right now.
But then when it first snapped right, I managed to tape it back together, and use it for a while more xD
Ahaha cheap bitch. I just panicked because I was bussing in the dark, and I needed the phone in case something happened right?

So I clung on to it, and holy, I was so thankful it was still working.
I texted everyone in dismay, complaining about my poor cell, which was dangling off the hinge, but no one seemed to give a shit very much =_________=

So I taped it back, and used it :D

Everyone was like WTF YOU CHEAPO get a new oneeee, but it was still working, so why not use it *being cheap ftw.

Then one day it finally, inevitably, died.
It was quite emotional for me please.
Like, all my memories and contacts, and of course, my pictures!
Some of my favourite camwhore self-shots were in that phone, and I can never get it back no more, because the cord stopped working long ago.

And some of my passwords were in that damn thing too.
Shit man, I need to learn to keep my passwords in safer places. Like a private notebook or something. But I never did. Damn you, procrastination! Priorities, woman.

Bahh so my dad insisted I get a new phone, and he brought me to the mall. I was just gonna get a cheap new replacement phone, but the phone dude convinced me into buying a black-fucking-berry.

And we all know that once you go black, you never go back x)
Which is so true. I now understand why bb addicts are so into their crackberries lol.
The thing is Godsent, I tell you!
I haz the Blackberry Bold 9700 in white.

TADAAA
*Cue Hallelujah chorus please.

LOOK AT THE SEXY MOTHERFUCKER.
I think it looks sexier in real life lah.
The picture does not do it justice.

I love it!!

Never really a tech person, but my favourite tech buys to date are my PINK Dell lappy and my Blackberry.
Note: I have stopped calling it a Blackberry because it is not blaaaaaaack.

It is a mf gorgeous shade of white, and therefore it is called the *drumrollllll*
Snowberry !!

Ingenious not? xD
Was torn between Snowberry or Winterberry, but bf helped me choose Snowberry. Kawaiii ^ ^

So adorable and purrrdy, I officially embrace personal technology into my life and I am like, even more technological than uhm Steve Jobs. >.> I am not a noob anymoaar.

Anyways, I think my brain/heart/fatty tissues are very confused because my emotions have been a huge roller coaster ride for the longest time.
One second I am happy as a lark, and the next I am depressed and forlorn. One minute I am genuinely, bouncily giddy with joy, and barely a minute later, I am miserable and emotional.

WHAT A MESS RIGHT.
So annoying. I wonder how the hell anyone can put up with me.
I am so lucky to have amazing people in my life :'(
Like today, when Ippy was carrying my kawaii pink laptop bag for me in the cold x3

He was wearing this epic black trench coat that made him look uber cool, like an awesome Matrix/FBI agent person. Then the bright pink bag kinda ruined everything. LOL i love my friends.

Anyways, I have soo many lovely hauls I die die must show everyone, anyone who reads this shit blog.

I have to!! What if like, one day, I lose my memory or something!?
Then at least I can look back at this blog (someone, please remember to show me this blog if ever that happens okay), and look at all the pretty things I had at some point of my life :D

Plus, this blog has been sooo mundane and wordy I must have lost the handful of readers long ago >____< PICTURES PLS.

But since it is 2:46am, *GOOD LORD wtf are you doing up* imma just put up a checklist of items I need to take pictures of and post soon. KAY here goes:

- Snowberry
- Pink lappy (yah I realized I don't have a picture of my lappy on my blog yet *gasp)
- Awesome new jacket
- Ninja turtle hat thingy
- PINK BAG i got on sale
- Gigantic Friends posters for my room
- First ever foam finger (I got it in pink!)
- More camwhore pictures

Bahaha that's it.
I really feel like camwhoring with my Snowberry and lappy right now, but I'm in my sleeping mode! :'(

Sleeping mode = barefaced, glasses, hair pinned up, sleepy eyed, oversized shirt I stole from bf, and underwear.

So I guess I'll have to wait till tomorrow.
Omg It's 3am, I am so screwed.
Goodnight world.
I have to learn to get my damn priorities straight.
Like dammit, I have an essay to finish, 3 tests to study for, and a French interview to look over.
Wtf woman, where the f is your sense of priority and responsibility?

Man, I might as well just start my vacation right now, why don't I ?
MEH I WISH I COULD.
IF I COULD, I WOULD just lie in my bed with my Snowberry and lappy and rot away.
But nooooo, apparently there is something called reality, that buzzkill.

Christmas please come nao. I cannot stand one more day of responsibilities.
I wanna be as carefree as a bird! T______T

Or Phineas and Ferb, what with their damn 104 days of summer vacation that never seems to end wtf. <3

2010-11-15T22:58:00.002-05:00

I don't see a point to my existence.
Not trying to be emo or anything, but I really think that I am a waste of space.

Ironic how my last post was so happy happy sunshine, but I guess its one of those days where I wake up from my delusional over optimistic boom boom shiznit phase, and you know, get a reality check.
Life sucks.

I don't see the point of it.

feelings

2010-11-07T02:38:00.000-05:00

Kaaay I am sooo damn unmotivated right now.
I have soo effing much to do, and so many datelines, but I have no push whatsoever to motivate me fml. ANDDD I'm in the middle of planning something uber exciting for the hols, so like, I can't wait! And yah no motivation. Bahh this is bad. I am gonna fail everything and become a hobo, maybe live in my boyfriend's closet since my parents will kick me out T__T

Yahh I have been an emo bunny recently. Well, very over emotional. More than usual, actually. I feel bad. I can't wait to unwind though. I need to make it up to my boyfriend :'( Christmas, baby ; )
My stupid irrational out of control emotions got us into a lovers' spat recently, and I feel like a bitch. But the good thing about fighting is you feel so much closer when you make up and talk things out :)

Speaking of which, my emotions are getting so out of control. I hate being so sensitive. If I could change one thing about me, it would be for me not to be so damn sensitive and not to be affected by the smallest tiniest thing that normal people usually won't give a shit about.
But my boyfriend and family and friends all tell me that I wouldn't be me if I lost that quality. =/
Does that mean that I have to be an over-emotional sensitive little wuss to be loved? xP

Well I guess it is better than being cold and desensitized to the sad things in the world right?
I pity the people who don't feel, actually. Now that I think of it.
The world is so full of emotions. Heck, people run on emotions.

Yes, lots of times, it is painful to feel. The negative feelings, the depression, the jealousy. Isn't it better if we just couldn't feel?

But then, what happens when a close friend surprises you with the best gift ever? Or when your parents tell you they're proud of you. Or when you get drunk for the first time with a best friend? Or when you cuddle with your significant other? When you get married, find out you're expecting? When you know you've met your soul mate? When you go for an awesome party? When you've had the best day ever?

See, wouldn't it suck if we couldn't feel during those special moments in life?
We just focus too much on the negativity and fail to see the beautiful things in life.

EW I sound like an over optimistic bimbo preacher.
Hell, I am probably one of the guiltiest when it comes to failing to see the bright side of life.
When I'm upset, I turn into like, a troll.

I cry and bitch and close everyone off. And I sulk about why life is so unfair and how hateful the world is etc.
But omg it is getting depressing. Teenagers hanging themselves, people cutting (Demi Lovato went for rehab or something for her cutting problem and self esteem issues!!) , its so sad how we can't see the beauty in life anymore. Well more often than not anyways.

And that includes me. Especially me.
I thank all the amazing people who put up with my over-sensitivity and horrible emotional purges. Oh, and the stupid over-thinking mechanism in my head. Without them and their patience, I would die alone. All by myself.

So yeah. The next time you feel depressed and hate the world, try to think about the things you look forward to in life. Everytime you wished you were dead, or everyone else to be dead, think about the people who make you happy. The people that matter.
And everytime you feel like giving up, think about the people that have not given up on you..

Everytime you feel like hope is gone, google miracle stories. They are cathartic.
And omfg the biggest mistake depressed people make; thinking they are alone. That is disastrous.
No one is ever truly alone. Yes, sometimes it can get pretty damn lonely, and then nighttimes may be the worst. But there is someone out there who will truly listen.
I know there are lots of people who merely hear, and don't give a flying fuck about what your problems are,but there is someone out there who will listen.

Just don't ever give up.

Omg I don't mean to sound so peachy and priest like and blah mundane, but I was feeling reflective. And I was thinking about the people I know who have taken their own lives, or thought about doing it. Don't. There is always someone who will never give up on you. And it isn't fair to yourself or them if you gave up on yourself.

Teehee funny how my rants about how unmotivated I am turned into this long ass nonsense about life. Ew old people talk.
But yah its not completely useless. Makes some sense right?
So please, if ever you know someone who is depressed or is thinking of doing reckless thingies, send them here, make them see what they're worth.

Oh speaking of worth, have you seen Katy Perry's Firework music video? It's awesomeee and ffs, fireworks are emitting from her heart not her tits !
Though I do love her boobies. She's gorgeous.
But yah I love that song. It is so cheesy and inspirational. I rike.

I am tired of typing my fingers are lazy now kthxbai.

2010-11-03T23:48:00.002-04:00

Omg omg omg planning something exciting, I am so excited I can't help but bounce off the walls of the blogosphere. Omg i really hope it works out. I don't want to jinx it, so I will shut up now :)

Summer's coming to an end

2010-08-19T01:32:00.000-04:00

Summer's coming to an end.
So much has happened, and right now, at this very moment, the realization has finally hit me; I'm going to university in the fall.

No more high school. No more using half-arsed excuses that teachers pretend to believe because you're usually a good student. No more slacking off big time and still managing to pull off decent marks. No more procrastinating. No more loafting in comfort zone.

When summer started, I was super psyched and uber pumped. But as it approaches the end of the summer, I feel so lost and so alone. Like, it's crazy because the people i love are all around me...but I can't help but feel that as the summer ends, I gradually feel more and more alone.

It's so overwhelming. To go to sleep with major unease, and waking up in the middle of the night crying. For no apparent reason.

Is it university anxiety ? I don't know... It's killing me. For fuck's sake. When I'm around people, I'm fine. I'm happy. Then once I'm alone, depressing thoughts invade and I feel like dying. It's so bad. I'm not depressed though. Really. I'm perfectly fine around people. But the nighttime kills me.

I'm scared. For the future.
I've never ever been this scared before.
Not on my first day of kindergarten (although I did bawl my freaking eyes out lol),
not when we were leaving Malaysia for Canada (and trust me, I was really scared that time), not on my first day of high school in Canada.
No.
Right now. This very moment. I have no idea why I'm scared to death.
I have never ever felt so vulnerable before.

It doesn't make sense at all.
I have been in worse situations in life.
I have been exposed to tragic heartbreaks and extreme pain.
But why do i feel so vulnerable and scared right now ?

Bahh this sucks shit.
I hope its just pms or something.

Don't get me wrong.
I love what life has to offer, and most of the people in it.
But right now... I just wish to cease to exist.

2010-07-27T01:07:00.000-04:00

Only once in my life have i ever despised someone as much as i do right now.

Damn them lowdown hypocrites; should all be crucified.

Blabber blabber + tons of pictures

2010-07-12T15:43:00.004-04:00

Wow.

This has been one heck of a year.

Wheew I cannot believe that we're actually done.

Hey mom, I'm out of high school, and on my way to university. =)

The thought itself is pretty darn intense.

I remember when playing with my dollies and pretend cooking trumped everything else.

Speaking of which....

Toy Story 3 was epic. Probably one of the most amazing movies ever. To me. It was a very nostalgic experience for me. The first Toy Story was the first movie I ever watched in a theater as a kid. And i loved Woody ♥ So watching TS3 was quite an emotional roller coaster.

I was reminded of how much i love the characters (i had a crush on Woody as a kid lolololol), and how amazing Pixar is.

But what really stuck to me is the amount of tears TS3 brought me to. Wow. Like. It was an emotional warfare!

*Spoiler* highlight to see if you've already watched it

I cried SO hard at the incinerator scene! Like, I knew they were gonna get saved somehow, but like... the fact that they all held hands and accepted death together really highlighted the amazing friendship bond they have together, and the extreme bravery in them. And that entire scene just made me bawl like a baby. It was so beautiful.

Then the Andy scene. Of course. HE JUST HAAAAD TO LIST ALL THEIR QUALITIES. I was already tear-stained, and then ... "Now Woody, he's been my pal for as long as I can remember. He's brave, like a cowboy should be. And kind, and smart. But the thing that makes Woody special, is he'll never give up on you... ever. He'll be there for you, no matter what.".

Omfg. It was then that i lost it completely. The floodgates opened immediately and I was sobbing hysterically. Baby looked over and giggled xD

I love that movie. ♥

*End of spoiler*

Wow I got sidetracked as usual.

Well, point is... I've grown up. O_o

This is scareh. I don't want to grow up :'(

Yeah what happened to those days where I couldn't wait to get home from Kindergarten to check on my dollhouse and pretend pancakes?

I miss the days when I would cry myself to sleep because the toy sticker maker machine thing wasn't available in my country..

Now, my priorities consists of balancing my social life, relationships, work + academic life, major moodswings, and all those adolescence nonsense. Its quite sad really, to wake up to the realization that my innocence is long gone, and that I will never ever get it back, no matter how much I pretend.

As a kid, I wanted to grow up so bad.

I wanted to be a grown up who could do anything.

Lol oh the irony. Now, as a teenager on the brink of adulthood, I feel more vulnerable than i ever was as a kid. Sure I was a puny kid who had no backbone to stand up for myself, but at least, I was very certain, so very very certain of my life.

I was going to study hard, grow up to become a teacher, meet Prince Charming who would sweep me off my feet, marry him, and live happily ever after.

I knew for sure who were my true friends.

My parents were indestructible. And super. They knew everything. :)

Now I'm so uncertain of everything.

The choices I make. The path I'm about to take.

But I'm growing up. I've changed so so much over the years.

Like... If you look back on my life through a video-like sequence in fast forward motion, you'd be beyond amazed at how drastically I've changed.

Bahh. All this talk of growing up is emotionally exhausting.

I'm a child i'm a child. T_______T

anyways here are pictures of what's been happening lately :) enjoy.

Disclaimer: Something wrong with my card reader so i couldn't upload some pics from my camera (which is not that many so its okay). So i kinda stole a lot of pics from friends x ) But don't worry I'll provide photo credits for whoever I stole the pictures from. :D lovely.

Kk I'll start with prom first, enjoyyy.
Btw some pictures i can't resize to fit screen or whatever.
So, click to enlarge :)

With the Girls; Veronica, Jaynelyn, Me, Deborah, Gabriela, and Gabby.
Stolen from Gabriela's album ♥

With ze girls again :P also from Gabriela

With beautiful beautiful Jaynelyn! :D i love this girl. Why must you be so pretty?!
Picture stolen from her nomnom.

With Veeeee. Cutest person ever.
Picture stolen from her :)

In front of the limo we rented. haha picture stolen from Marlo.

Favourite picture ever. We look like the cast from some glam TV show lololol *shameless*
I dunno who took this picture. :o I stole it from Marlo though.

Prom entrance picture ♥ I love it.

Another favourite picture ever.
With my favourite person ever!
I think bf's uncle or mom took this, i don't remember. T___T But i love this picture also. It's so pro-looking.

omnomnom. Epitome of fat. x )
Looks really plain, but that pasta was so damn delicious. Omg. I hungry just thinking of it. They served such small servings though >=( I wanted more, but they gave me huge hunks of fish instead >=( I don't like fish. Wait, was it fish or pork? Bah i didn't like it though. xD

With Bart the soulmate. I look horrible though. So ugly. But its okie cuz its one of the only pictures i have with this guy x )
wth man. He was with me almost the whole night and we don't have other pictures ? I think there are others, but i can't find it. Bah, nehmind. This one will do for now. I have lots of camping pictures with him below ;)

Graduation! Stolen from Veronica.
LOL i look damn fat compared to all this skinny skinny people.
Hatechu.
Naw I love them so much. Gonna miss them in university :'(

Kk here on after, will all be from my camping trip :P Sooo all the pictures are stolen from Bart's camera. His epic DSLR woooo i love that camera it's so awesome.
Omg I want a dslr camera so bad. So many effects and functions. And the quality is amazing.

Lol arrived at the campsite :)
Mandatory shameless camwhoring first.

In the tent, which was so spacious and fun.
Lol Bart and I compared it to the house-tent thing from Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. For HP nerds, remember the tent that the Weasleys used at the World Cup? the one that looks so small, but when they went it , it was like a house ??! hahahaha yeah that x )

Pretty Jackie! :)

She's the one who organized all this. We would all have died camping without her motherly ways and very very camping skills. What with all the drinking and throwing up later that night. She was the one who took care of us x ) This girl was born to be outdoors lol.

random shot of car window.

Yay we went to the farm and found this tractor thing.

Lololol them be jerking. Teaching me the dance moves but I epic fail.

CONGAAAA ♥

Maneuvering the tractor >=)

Group picture (minus Julene who was taking it)

I love this picture. Everyone looks adorable.

Bah unflattering eating picture. Baby's a dick. ♥

Bart's amazing camera skills! :D
Love this picture its so pretty. :P

♥

Bahaha Bart's favourite picture of us. x ) Sun was shining on my skin. T_____T

I love this picture. Its so beautiful.

Jackie and John. Kawaiiiii.

Lol forgot to put this tractor picture of me and Julene with the others above.

i love his camera.
my skin was so patchy and irritated that day, but w/e.
I still love his camera. Pictures turn out so nice. Unlike my crappy one that flashes when its not supposed to and make everyone look super oily and shiny.

baha we vandalized Bart's school pants. He wanted to burn them in the campfire, but after we wrote the sweeet stuff on it, he kept it lolll ♥

As i said before, unflattering!!!
Geez.

Omg baby piglets are sooo adorable.

Hi :)

Waiting for our hot dogs and burgers. Everyone was ravenous by the evening.
I forgot to take a picture of the hot dog! D=
It was very yummy. and looked very yummy.
You would've enjoyed looking at it. :(

Campsite in the daylight.

Campsite at night.
With campfire.
Lol this was when things started getting super fun x )

Sparklers!

Yay i took this picture! ♥
Baby loves sparklers, i love taking pictures of sparklers. They're soo pretty.

And so it begins.
The chugging of alcohol and all that bad things.

Bart drunk and dancing with Domi x )

I should never ever be allowed to camwhore while drunk. Ever.
I look like hell.

Lol in the middle of the path with Bart.
He was sooooo drunk lolololol funniest thing ever.
I was almost there x )

Having drunk conversations is always fun lol

After having heart-to-heart drunken talks, Barty started tearing. :'( ♥
And we continued to camwhore x )

Love this dude.

More drinking ! LOL.

I finally collapsed. Baby struggling under my weight >=)

Wow lol i do not recall taking this picture at all.
But i think it's adorable! ♥ Yay drunk pictures ftw 8)

Gone x )

Baby's eye.
I took this picture too! i am very talented hahaha wtf.
Naw its the camera. Epic quality. So pretty right?
Bah screw you white people and your gorgeous eyes. >=(

Go home time!
In Jackie's car. We got bored.

And hungry.

AWW look at my double chin! ♥ :)
Love this pic of us though. I love those two.

Well I have had a great start of my summer, and I hope it gets better and better :)
I wanna have loads of fun now, cuz once September starts, I'm a university girl :o

Will be busy busy.
Anyways I'm going to cook noodles and watch a movie now. :)

Btw for those of you who haven't watched "Despicable Me" yet, watch it!! omg it's soo cute and funny and heartfelt.

Loves it. Watched so many amazing cartoons this month!
Finally watched Pixar's Up (lol im so slow everyone already saw this long long time ago), Toy Story 3 (fave movie everrrrr) , and Despicable Me. All of them made me laugh and cry so hard. Amazing. I love movies like that.
Anyways ya i am starving right now, and I can't stop thinking of my instant noodles.
k byeeeee. hope you enjoyed the pictures.

I'll try updating more frequently from now on *cross fingers*

soon i promise

2010-07-12T02:12:00.001-04:00

I have a super long post coming up. Like SUPER long. I typed it already. Just need to add the pictures. I promise it will be up soon.

Hectic and growing up

2010-06-18T01:10:00.000-04:00

Exams exams exams T___T

Then... prom. wow. Then graduation. I am so excited, yet scared and sad at the same time. We're almost done. We're out of the dramedy of high school, and moving into adulthood.

I am ready to get out of high school, but kind of apprehensive of stepping out of my comfort zone. I mean, in the course of my high school life, I have moved a grand total of 3 times x)

Everytime I get comfortable with a group of people, I have to uproot and move again. And it happens again. :/

I finally find a group of people I can comfortably and really click with, and a few really really amazing people I never want to lose ever (in the course of my 18 years of living, I have never been so real and comfortable with anyone before). Then we have to leave and go separate ways.

In all sincerity, I wish that we will keep in touch, and make honest efforts to keep in contact. Well, the people who matter most will be pretty close by (MacMaster, Guelph-Humber and UTM xD) , so I'm not too worried. But i'm just worried everyone will be so consumed with their new lives that they will cease to hangout no more =(

But yeah. Moving on, I am excited for this new exciting change (0nce again lol) , but I'm super scared as well. I am excited to meet new friends, but desperate to not lose the old.

I am anticipating the new opportunities and wonders awaiting me, but scared shitless of losing the things I hold closest and dearest to me right now.

Well, isn't this what growing up is all about?

To venture into new thresholds, hearts filled with fear and anticipation, keeping what you treasure close to your heart, and cutting ties with those toxic to you?

I am deathly afraid, but at the same time fearless; of what the future holds. Because I know that despite what happens in the future, I will never be alone. ♥ ah the beauty of close bonds.

And why worry about the future when I can bask in the beauty of right now ? : )

Okay, time to review a bit more and go to sleep.

Goodluck on your exams, people! ♥ then prom and grad. wooot.

p/s: never never land.

2010-05-16T22:32:00.001-04:00

Omgggg my blog is infested with cobwebs!
It has been way too long. >___<
Alright i am writing a blog post right now.
In the midst of a huge paper due this friday.
Cuz it has been waaay too long since i updated this bugger, and I obviously have my priorities sorted out right
=D

alright brb people.

chicken shit

2010-03-10T12:23:00.001-05:00

Fuck. My. Life.

I JUST realized I forgot to include something CRUCIAL in my philosophy test.
Omfg.
SHOOT ME NOW.

O Hai.
You stupid girl >=(

And omfg. If the girl beside me doesn't stfu, I am going to throw cookies at her. Cookies! You know I am pissed when I throw food. She is getting high 90's in everything, and she is complaining. -___-'' You have NO idea how much people like that piss me off. Like omfg.
You can call me fat, you can call me lazy, you can make fun of my small eyes, hell, you can even combine all those and call me fatty pigface, and I wouldn't even be as pissed as when you complain when you have a 90%+ in your courses.

Kay, look. I respect that you have sky high standards and and expecations, and that a mere 90% is not sufficient for highly immortals like you. : )
See, I admire that and I ~~will worship at your feet~~ but omfg, if you open your mouth and start complaining about how you're not satisfied with that mark, I want to pull your pubes. Not really, but still... Makes me a fucking angry camper >=(

Why? Because mere mortals below you would KILL for your marks.
Some even rejoicing because they got a 75%, and some crying because they got a 60%.
And there you are, O highly one... complaining about your 95%!
How do you think that makes the average humanoids feel?

Darn.

Kay and laaady. Stop looking over at my computer to see what I'm doing.
It is very extremely annoying and it bugs me.
Here I am blogging about how annoyed I am with people like you when I am supposed to be researching, and you just have to stretch your neck and find out what I am doing -_-

She saw what "shoot me now" thing I wrote above, and commented on it ... omfg double sweat =___=''

Dammmit man.
If I hear another person complaining about their 99%, I will internally and externally combust. No Joke.
I will release my wrath in the form of poisonous methane. And you will regret.
And stfu.

*****

kay... rant over (^-^)
Moving on to happier things...
March Break next week. yayness! :)

Sleepover at baby's habitat, trips to the movies, hangout with awesome non-annoying lovelies ♥ and hopefully domi will be able to sleepover at my habitat again.
T'will be fun fun fun.
I am so stressed right now, I will take up muay thai if anyone disrupts my March Break.
>=(

Omg omg i wanna shop for prom dresses soon! :) weeee exciting.
I wanna look like a princesssssss. lol shameless x )
But yeah.
Barticles you have to come prom dress shopping with me ♥
And we will look for a handsome tux for yourself ;)

omg i just had a picture in my mind's eye... Domi in a tux.
Woooot. Hawtness xD

Can't wait 8)

Kk I'm not pissed anymore =)
until I get my philo test that is : ( hopefully he won't take too many marks off it =(

love,
Jils ♥

- you'll be the prince and i'll be princess,
it's a love story baby just say yeshhh -

harajuku loverrrrrrrrs ♥

2010-02-23T02:52:00.002-05:00

I meant to blog about this ages ago, but I was lazy as usual...
Remember the Harajuku perfume I was ranting about in my previous entry ?
That summer heaven in a bottle that I wanted so badly ?

Omg I got it ! :) :) :)
Happiie Happiie.
Got it for Valentine's Day, cuz baby was being so effing sweet ♥
He actually asked me about which flavour perfume from the brand I liked the day before, and told me he would but it for me on my birthday.
x )
I believed himmmm lol that scammer :P

But anyways. V-day was amazing.
He slept over at my place [Yes, people, my super asian parents let my boyfriend sleepover at our house omg o_o ]

It was one of the funnest weekends I've had in a looong time :D
Thank You baby.

The perfume is godly omfg mad love.

Just a spritz and it lasts the whole day. Daddy thinks it smells like coconut oil -___- but its so amazing. It has this very summery feel, and when you smell it, it just reminds you of tropical beaches, breezy summer days and bright happy colours. <3

AnywaysI have to go study economics now, been slacking too much T__T

i see the stars in your eyes

2010-02-10T22:54:00.001-05:00

If only...
If only you could see yourself through my eyes.
If only you could see how special you are to me.

Even just for a day.

If only you could see...
The way your eyes crinkle at the sides as you break into that heart-melting smile of yours.
The way they glisten silver in the sun (Screw Edward Cullen. Silver is the new gold homie)

If only you could alter your senses to feel you through mine.
If only you could..
Smell yourself the way i do, feel your touch the way i feel (lmao this would be quite disturbing though).

If only you could...
Feel the pain I feel when you put yourself down.
Know the heartbreak like i do when i see you in pain.
Taste my sorrow of seeing your misery and not being able to do anything about it.

If you could see yourself through my little asian eyes,
you would put away all those inhibitions, melt all that doubt away.

If only you realized how much you mean to me;
`like the sunlight to my sunflower.
`the yin to my yang.
`the Lifestream to my Gaia ? x)

If only you could see you through my eyes; see what I see when I look at you...

... you'd be the biggest narcissist on the planet :)

On a side note...
I am SO in love with the Harajuku Lovers G perfume...

Omfg.
I think my emotions and sentiments are directly connected to my olfactory glands.
My sense of smell if especially acute, and you know how you listen to a song, and it can bring back very vivid nostalgic feelings and memories ?
Thats what I get with certain smells.

And one of my favourite things to do. Ever. Is smelling my boyfriend xD
I don't care how creepy that sounds.
But I think when a person smells good, it majorly boosts their attractiveness.

LOL see how shallow I am ? : (

Well yeah anyways. I love love love that perfume. But it's expensive. So instead of buying it, I've been spraying the tester/sample ones on display in Shoppers :D
Cheapcheap. ^ ^

I wouldn't mind resorting to being a kleptomaniac just to get my paws on this baby.
Naaw I think I'd chicken out >__<

But yeah. If you're looking forward to randomly spending your money on something useless, buy that for me please. ♥
XD

2010-02-10T00:06:00.003-05:00

~~Scratch that. Scratch it all.~~
Screw this.
What happened to hope ?
i have been such an angry sad bitch these days its not even funny.

God help me please.
I have to stay strong.

On a brighter note,
My mommy is making Chinese New Year cookies right now x )
Mad loves. ♥

Omagahhhh CNY, red packets pleaseeee.
More money + More shopping = Jils is a happy camper ^__^

Yeeeeee and the shallowness rears its airy head again. - ___ -

Awmg.
The butter cookies smell so effing deelish.
Imma go steal some =)

I want a neural implant that will help me download all the information I need without having to study lololol.
And if a virus infects me, and the whole system shuts down, and all my info is wiped out... so be it.
That is how shallow I am. Deal with it. :/

Omg. Cookies from heavennnnn ♥
Nothing else matters anymore omnomnom

i see the stars in your eyes

2010-02-09T20:21:00.003-05:00

my friend

2010-02-08T17:42:00.005-05:00

Disclaimer: Writing this entry made me cry.
It may not seem like a lot, but for me to write and publicize it like that took a lot courage and unwilling tears. Please don't judge. I just needed to let it out.

I am in one of the weirdest funk ever.

So one of my close friends kind of sort of shared her thoughts with me today. And dammit, she is soo deep >_<
Her outlook in life, her beliefs, her way of thinking, her dreams, her determination, her ideals. I felt so damn amateur after finding out. It was scary. I've known her for a while. And I know what a perfectionist she is. But, I never knew what really lived in her mind. Or rather, in her.

Saying that she made me feel shallower than a kiddie pool is an understatement.
I felt like crap. For one moment, I felt the materialistic little cocoon I've been enveloped in all these while shift and tear open a bit. I was quite shaken.

I realized how determined she is, and it made me realize how useless I really am.
I tend to only put an effort in things I like and enjoy.
That's why I suck at Math. Unlike her, who strives for the best in everything, and perseveres through all hardships; all odds. She's like that storybook heroin who works hard for all she wants to achieve, and in the end triumphs against all odds.

And I'm that character on the sidelines that nobody cares about.

My failures affect me a lot, despite my cold indifference and seeming stoicity.
I just... when people around me feel like crap, I really do not want to add to their misery by complaining about how crappy I feel about myself; my abilities, or lack thereof.
For them, for the people I love, I stay strong.
I don't want them to see me crumble. But how long can this facade go on for ?
Sometimes i feel like shouting to the world about how crappy I feel about myself. The world doesn't need me. Why am I here?

I pretend I don't care, but it affects me a lot to know that my parents are probably disappointed I'm not the typical 90%-in-Math genius Asian child.
They're amazing people, my parents.
They do not deserve a daughter like me. They really don't.
They deserve so much better than what I put them through.
I'm so sorry. And I hate that I can't bring myself to say that to them :(

I wish I was smarter. Not for myself. I don't really care. Sounds apathetic, but academics are not everything to me. I am more of the philosophical/change the world/help the starving kids kinda person. Too bad the world revolves around academics. But yeah. I wish I was smarter. For my parents.
So they can be proud of me. So it'd be easier for me to get a golden ticket to giving them a better life in the future. It kills me to think about how undecided I am.
I know what I want to do, but it doesn't reap a lot of money, and I cannot settle for mediocrity in life; I need to repay my parents. For all their sacrifices. All that they've been through. For me.

mommydaddyimsosorry T__T

Back to the topic of my friend. And me being shallow. I admit I like pretty things.
It makes me happy.
I am materialistic.
I am easily amused, very easy to please. I am an airhead.
But she on the other hand, who's so deep, talented, smart, mature...makes me question what the fuck I am doing. Where the fuck am I going to end up in the world ?

And she probably thinks I'm stupid.
So I found out about her thoughts on chances.
She doesn't understand how easily I can accept "imperfections" emotionally. I know I give out chances like running water. I trust people. I believe in repentance. I believe that even the coarsest stones could shine if given a chance.

She reminded me about the warnings I've gotten, and yet I still gave it a go; gave it a try, a chance. She doesn't understand why. How. She doesn't believe in them.
She cannot comprehend how I can accept something, someone, who could potentially inflict hurt and damage and deceptions on me in hope for something more. Something special. She believes that the L word cannot be based on chances.
In her world, leopards will never change their spots.
In my world, even the fiercest of leopards can be tamed if given time, trust and chances.

:/

She made me question my beliefs.
My strongest beliefs staggered for a nanosecond. Just for a nanosecond.
But I have come to the conclusion that no matter how many people oppose and curse my apparent "stupidity" or naivety, I still stand strong in my theory about chances.

Trust me, I've been bruised, battered and shattered in the past.
I have given my heart in whole to some, and gotten it back in blender-ed smithereens.
I have been badly hurt because of the abundant chances I gave out.
But I emerged stronger didn't I ?
I have been through pitch black periods in my life I don't even want to look back at.
But did that faze me from try try trying again?

A lot of people, like my friend, will shake their heads sympathetically and click their tongues in exasperation, but I will continue to hold on to what I believe in; to give chances and acceptances as I would like to be accepted. Especially to the ones I love.

I've been taken for granted time and again, too far too long, but that ~~wuss~~ forgiving nature in me has pulled me through, in hope of being appreciated someday. In hope that something beautiful will come of it.

♥ Everybody makes mistakes. No one deserves to be judged or held back for something they did in a moment (or moments) of terrible misjudgment. Especially if they realize, repent and redress.

I'm a coward.
I'm scared of a lot of things.
But am I afraid of taking chances for my friends, family or love?
No.
Maybe someday I might look back and think of this as immature, naive and stupid.
But for now.
I've been through the mill; there and back again...

...and I still believe in fairytales.

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2010-01-26T23:54:00.005-05:00

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"Love isn't always going to be perfect. It's not a fairytale or a storybook.
And it doesn't always come easy.
Love is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together,
holding on and never letting go.
It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without.
Love is accepting all the complexities and simplicities.
Love is work, but most of all, Love is realizing that every hour, every minute, and every second was worth it because you did it together."

So on the last day of the semester, Ella and I skipped fourth period to camwhore with Krystal and Domi xD

I laf Ella's macbook btw.
Makes my skin so pwerty. Mad loves < 3

***

oh em gee.

i love these kids ;)

[♥]

i wuv my fwens.

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2 more papers to go.
Wish me luckkkkk (yn)
I can't wait for all this to be over.
I need sleep.
Pronto.
T__T

yum yum in my my tum tum ♥

2010-01-23T00:50:00.151-05:00

This post is dedicated to you know who you are.

In a few hours time, it will be 5 months since we started going out.

To many, that might not seem to be very long.

But to me, there were so many unforgettable memories in that 5 months that counts for more than the length of time we've been together. Its the quality not the quantity lmao. x )

The laughter. The tears. The awkward moments. The random ones. The "little fights that make the relationship golden". The pain. The joy. The hardships. The rewards.

The 39829834723878275 fattie yummy tummy moments ♥

Have to camwhore before I start x )

ANYWAYSSSS.

August;

Got together ♥

September;

Cocooned in the whole lovey-dovey new love honeymoon period.

Downtown Toronto together for the first time.

'twas fun

October;

We got closer.

Random camwhoring in the caf on Civvies day ^^

November;

3 months now.

Became more Asian on multicultural night with Christine and Barty ♥

December;

Crucial turning point of our relationship.

December was the month where many things happened.

Had talks that could make or break the two of us.

Turned out... it made (cross fingers).

Became so much closer.

Soulmate and boyfriend.

I feel loved. I really do.

I love the people around me. I honestly do not know what I'd do without my loved ones.

They're major reasons why I believe in God; which is so ironic cuz most of the people I am close to are either atheists or agnostics x )

Anyways. Remember December ?

Yeah.

I slept over at your place on your birthday.

+1 in my parent's trust in us , yay ^ ^

It was amazing.

To wake up and find you beside me.

I might consider giving up buttered rice to feel that everyday.

Or maybe not. T___T

but somewhere along those lines. you know what i mean.

Fatties will never lose their gluttony tendencies >=)

I went to your Christmas Ever family gathering.

You knew I was nervous so you held my hand

to meet the throngs of people from your extended family o_o

I fell in love again.

With your baby cousins. =)

Two of my favourite babies in the world.

Then came New Year's eve. xD

Oh the memories.

Our families met for the first time. Got along pretty well (yn)

Got drunk for the first time.

You were amused. It was epic ♥

Our kiss lasted from one year to the next lmfao x )

You kill me.

January;

Fattie instincts kicked in... BIG time.

Made Pizza Pizza and Subway our second homes ♥

Ahahahahahahahaha ♥

So yeah.

It was at some point in December when I realized how lucky I was to be in love with my best friend.

I've never been so comfortable with someone outside my family (besides Bart but he doesn't count xD ) before...

And really. I love how goofy we can be with each other, and I tell you things I can't tell anyone else.

We have our fights and our pms-y moments. But we know essentially that we love each other. And as you said, its the little fights that make the relationship golden.

Despite our million differences (You like Cannibal Corpse, I like Taylor Swift. I whimper while watching horror movies, you laugh at the scary parts. You believe in science and logical theories, I believe in fairytales and happily ever afters. You love caramel chocolates, I think they're disgusting compared to dark ones, You're on Team Edward, I'm on Team Jacob), we get along pretty damn well.

We have had plenty of disagreements, and unfortunately will have more in the future. Part and parcel of relationships. But promise me we'll pull through.

Keep holding on, yummy tummy.

So. Thank You, buddy.

For the comfy bear hugs, adorableeee baby talks "you pulled my haaair" lmfaooo (omfg I actually lol-ed in class thinking of that), stupid jokes, loser antics, cutest sneezes ever, that baby scent you have (its not faaair!), and the ten million other things I love about you.

And most importantly.

Thank You for being more than a boyfriend; a best friend, a companion, a confidant, a protector (sometimes fail xD), an entertainer, a therapist, a pillow, a shoulder to cry on, someone to love, someone to hold.

I love you.

Happy Five.

P/s: Oh, and You're 6'2.

I'm 5'2.

LOL.

my mom thinks its cute xD

♥

Fearless

2010-01-07T02:09:00.003-05:00

You know how once in a ~~blue~~ pink moon, you chance upon something trivial yet super inspirational? I read Taylor Swift's definition of "Fearless" and it took my breath away. Its so beautiful. So i thought it'd be nice to share something so meaningful with you peoples. Hopefully you'll find it as inspiring as I did. :)

To me, “FEARLESS” is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.

FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you’ve been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again…even though every time you’ve tried

before, you’ve lost.

It’s FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. I think it’s FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he’s in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s FEARLESS to stop believing them. It’s FEARLESS to say “you’re NOT sorry”,

and walk away.

I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright…That’s FEARLESS too.

But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after.

- Taylor Swift

twenty ten

2010-01-02T20:23:00.000-05:00

Happiie New Year Twenty Ten peoples ♥

So last night was awesome :)
Hopefully all the negative shiznit from 2009 will be left behind as I ushered in the new year (aaaand new decade omg!) with amazing people around meh :P
With my family, my boyfriend, his best friend, and his whole throng of super fun family members. :)

It was definitely a night to remember ;)

So seeing how smooth everything went when the clock struck 12 last night, I really put my hope and wishes into the gently falling snow outside my window that the coming days will be as good as that very moment everyone yelled "...one! Happy New Yearrrrr!!".
That warm fuzzy feeling I got when we kissed, and tore apart to hug our families; priceless.

Before school starts and all the stress and worries ensue, I'm actually quite happy to wallow in this lazy content for a while.

Happy New Year guys :)
All the best in this new decade.
New Year, New Decade, New Beginnings, Clean Slates;
I have a good feeling :)
*keeping fingers crossed*

oh ps: I got wasted for the first time last night omfg weirdest feeling ever. Like, I've been tipsy before, but yesterday I was really gone >___<
Everything was soo funny and I felt soo light =)
LOL my bf, my sis and Andrew found my state of drunkness hilarious wtf xD
Domi giggled so much lmfaoooo he giggled xD
With the whole teeheehee-ness omfgggg LOL
XD
My mom was like "Is Domi drunk? Your boyfriend looks tipsy" LOLOLOL.

And I felt ugly. With mascara stained tears and a runny nose and snot and whatnot. And nauseous. But I felt lucky.
I felt loved and protected, surrounded by my loved ones who showered me with affection even at my ugliest =D
And for the first time in ages, I felt like everything was going to be okay. ♥

Hopefully this euphoria will last.
I uber hate that feeling where something happens and all the hope and joy ebbs away... and you are left feeling drained and emo. >____<
Mad gross.

So anyways.
Happiie New Year everyone.
I know that 2009 for the most part was quite crappy for quite a lot of people I'm close to.
So here's a toast (fyi i actually a glass of chinese tea with me right now so cheers) to all of you; 2010 will rockkk your socks. It will be tons better than its predecessor.

I have a feeling this year is gonna be a good yearr ♪♫
(yn)

(^____^)

p/s: yeahh its quite disgusting and embarassing

Reminder

2009-12-31T03:19:00.002-05:00

So today just reminded me why I don't believe in promises anymore :)

What a horrible epiphany to get on the very last days of 2009.
Oh well.
I can only cross my fingers and hope that 2010 will be a kinder year :)

Funny.
2007 was emotionally horrible.
2008 was all about betrayals.
2009 was okaay at first. Then nearing the middle it was bad. Then in the middle it was all okay. In fact, it was fantastic for a while. And the end... like right now, I'm feeling really emotional.
2010... will be fantastic *cross fingers till they bleed* (yn)

And today.
On New Year's Eve, I officially give up.
Give up trying to fix things.
I'm tired of always being the one who tries my very best from saving the glass from breaking , and hurting myself in the end.

Why can't someone else try for once ?

anyways.
I don't think my long picture-filled entry will be up soon.
I lost the mood.

Ugh. Failure to the max.

Anyways.
I'm sad.
On New Year's Eve.
This sucks.

Happy New Year Peoples.
2010 will rockk, I will make sure of that =) ♥

Omg I'm touching!!!

2009-12-29T00:40:00.000-05:00

omg this is so cool i'm blogging from my sis' ipod touch !XD

Wait wait wait

2009-12-27T20:36:00.000-05:00

Kkkkkkkkkkkk hi ! =)
Sorry for abandoning my blog for a while T__T

I have been quite busy since the holidays started and I really wanted to blog, but I didn't have time to update, and when I did have the time, I chose to ~~surf porn, nooo i lied, i'm actually terrified of porn for some reason true story!~~ laze around and be lazy.

So anyways, I have quite a lot to blog about and I am going to start the uber long post with pikchurs right now after I finish typing this one.
So wait for it ! =)

Oh and btw, Merry belated Christmas! :P ♥
and an early happiiie new yearrrrrrrr (just in case I procrastinate more and don't finish the next entry on time -__-)

its a damn cold night

2009-12-23T17:12:00.000-05:00

Now that i'm sitting here thinking it through,
I've never been anywhere cold as you

I think i have lost my blogging mojo for a while now :(
Meh.
I hope it comes back soon cuz i really wanna write.
To let go of all these pent up frustration and bottled up emotions.
I want to, but I can't bring myself to do it.

And it's gonna be Christmas in 2 days.

Bah humbug.

Where are you Christmas?

Why don't the idea of presents excite me anymore

damnit jils.

snap out of it.
it's christmas.
stop being so grinch-like and be happy. :D

fmlfmlfml

2009-12-14T03:52:00.000-05:00

Sorry for the lack of updates
Stupid me procrastinated again, and the workload piled up and i had to rush last minute.
T___T

Stupid shit.
Its the last week before Christmas break, and omfg, SOO much work to do, what with all the damn cpt's, assignments, tests, etc etc.
fml why didn't i start preparing earlier.

Honestly, I am a chronic procrastinator, and I dunno how to change.
Everytime there's like... a day left before the dateline, i'm like rushing my ass off, and promising never to leave things till the last minute again.

Then when its over, I forget, and when I have a new assignment, the same thing happens all over again. The whole rushing, flipping out, multiple coffees, all-nighter, panda eyes, empty promises etc etc. It's a friggin vicious cycle.

Believe it or not, I just finished my data management research report, and I have to start studying for the world issues test tomorrow o_o
and its... 3:46am T_____________________________T

farkkk mai laifff.
Then after winging the test tomorrow (honestly imma fail this test i know it sigh), I have to start my World Issues Research Paper.
omfgg i'm going to fricken fall to the floor and cringe and writhe and shrink and crumple.

why am i blogging when i am supposed to be studying?
Pls help me. I am rotting.
K yeah imma go nerd now.

wish me luck ppls. i really really need it.

honestly cannot wait for the break to start.
bf's sleepover party this saturday. 5 more days.
be patient, girly! ♥
5 more effing days, 1 more test which i am doomed to fail, 1 more long-ass research paper....and it's over.

God please help me please.

T____________T

Trojan ponytails

2009-12-07T05:34:00.002-05:00

Yeah. The title. o_o
If it makes any sense to you... then you're messed in the head :)

So I was working today.
Bagging groceries and ringing money from 11am to 6pm.
I thought i would die of boredom.
But hey.
When you're a cashier at Sobey's, boredom will never be your problem lol.

So i was dutifully bagging this lady's shtuff when something caught my eye.
2 packs of "Trojan".
1 extra pleasure, and the other was... i think it was extra thin? I forget , but still! x )
How kinky ;) And she looked like one of those... traditional uptight bitch of a homemaker.

Lolll it doesn't stop there!
Intrigued as I was, I had to be all professional and hold back any hint of amusement while packing the condoms x ) hardest thing ever.

It was pretty awkward really (lol i'm so childish sighhh) , so I rang it through and hurriedly bagged it before I did anything to embarrass myself. But as I threw the condoms into the bag, the lady snatched them back up o___o
She shoved them in my face and asked me :

*imagine this in a heavy indian accent [no racism intended here pls. she did have an accent. and it'll make the scene more vivid for you :D ]

"Miss! Why this packet (the extra pleasure one) got 50% off, and the other one (rummaging the bag to look for the extra thin one) normal price? Both Trojan! If this one got discount, the other one must have also!"

Awkward silence.
Me checking the pack tentatively.

"Um. I think... it's cuz they're ... different types..... ?"

Silence.

"Ok ok. It's okay then. Thank you very much, miss"
She then proceeds to throw the condoms into a bag full of ... food o____o
lololol.
She's my hero.

Oh, and another thing that made my day!
This adorable little girl came up to me and told me she liked my ponytail.
♥
My heart melted.
So so cute.
Another reason why I adore little children :)
They say the most adorable things.
My hair wasn't even in a ponytail x )

Lol someone told me my maternal instincts are tingling and my body system wants a baby =_____________=

Well too bad.
My parents would chop me alive if I followed those maternal instincts.

Something else happened during work today.
But i forgot.
I'll update when I remember :D

pinata in pajamas

2009-12-04T22:24:00.001-05:00

Have you ever planned something for someone as a surprise, but feel like you’re dying on the inside because you’re bursting to tell them? x)

That is exactly what I am feeling right now.

Domi's birthday is in about 2 weeks :)

you're gonna be a big boy now, baybeeee 8) ♥

I am really really excited to show him his gift, but helllll I am NOT going to let him even get a whiff of what it is. No. Cannot. Bad.

He has already sussed out a few of my random mini surprises so many times before >:[

I am hell-bent on not letting him sniff out the surprise pre-maturely this time. Not for his birthday. Sorry babe :)

And to you-know-who-you-are who know what is going on, hush now beautifuls.

I really wanna see his face when he opens the present. x )

I really really don’t wanna destroy the surprise.

So God help me pls, I suck at keeping surprises omfg.

I want it to come faster so I can stop hiding it and just give it to him already x )

Oh my god. I am so impatient when it comes to surprises.

Lol i actually bribed my baby brother to tell me what he got me for Christmas!

How low is that! T________T

Anyways time pls pass faster so i won't feel like a pinata on the verge of bursting before the child can even hit me.

I just realized that that is a terrible comparison x )

But then again, hmmm... if I fast forward time, I have 2 papers due next week (not even close to done) and 2 major tests which I am not ready for. Bleh!

Why must life always be so complicated!

*furious*

Musings of a bored teenage math-hater

2009-11-30T23:02:00.005-05:00

I'm starting to slip and fall off the tracks.

My belief, once so strong and rock-solid, is starting to waiver, to fall apart.

Your pessimism is a huge contributing factor.

Its starting to get to me. To eat me up alive.

I once so strongly believed.

Yet you're starting to convince me to see the shambles, the crack in the mirror.

Even the scent is different now.

Where I once smelled baby breath and blasé happiness, I now smell rancid disappoint....and a hint of wistful melancholy of a hidden nightmare reawakening.

You promised me never.

But I see it in your eyes.

Behind every condescending smile.

Every patronizing laughter.

Every forced embrace.

You look at me, you see her.

Promises.

I don't even know if I believe in those anymore...

They are but an empty language, music to the ears and verbal armors used to pacify insecure girlfriends and naive little children.

To the person who manages to show me that promises do exist still, I will never forget you. Ever.

No that's not a bitchy aura you see,

It's just the heart starting to put up safeguards, building brick walls to protect her master from the arrows hurtling by.

The same arrows that not once but twice, left even the most optimistic soul broken: the tears, the endless bleak hours, the shattered heart.

Never again, please.

She can't take it no more.

♥

Muahaha end of random burst of poetic rhymeness inspiration thingy.

Not in the mood for a proper blog post, but I will come up with one soon, promise.

Got photos to share ^ ^

But before I go, I have to blog about this before I forget lmao.
So I was walking Bart to class when we saw this guy that Bart dislikes intensely. Bart calls him "Fat and Ugly".

Bart: Ew look, Fat and Ugly shaved!

Jils: Haha yeah! x )

Bart: Now he’s fat, ugly, and bald!

Lmfao! ♥

first trimester

2009-11-24T02:57:00.003-05:00

happy 3 months baby
thankyou for everything ♥

***

Omfg.
Halloween just ended and now Christmas is so close by *excited pees in pants*

I friggin love the holidays. ♥
And Christmas is just. So so awesome.
Like, the whole atmosphere around you changes.
It's like everyone suddenly becomes kinder, nicer, more attractive, etc etc + pink ponies come out to play and the snowflakes are shaped in tiny smiley faces : )

I heart Christmas.
Oh and the presents.
Don't forget the presents. =)

Okay now imma shamelessly write down my Christmas Wishlist '09.
Just in case any kind passerby wants to get me an awesome gift.
So here you go, here's what i want.
I really don't ask for much :/

Good luckk x )

1) Pink Sony Vaio

kk i know this is a bit outdated but whatever beggars can't be choosers. if you buy me a pink vaio i will heart you forever, i will return your gift, buy you a hamster.

2)Pink Samsung Cleo

Again, this is quite an old phone, but whatever okay i like it can o not >=(
Look at it, its so adorable! It's the size of compact powder, and its just... so kawaii omg *pinch face

3) Pink Blackberry

Or as I call it; the Pinkberry!

I want it. Bart. What are you waiting for. I say Pinkberry. Nao.

4) White leather boots!

Omg I really want this *love & hearts flying all around*
White leather boots are so effing smexy.
Especially for celebrating a White Christmas *swoons* ♥
lol white boots in the snow; stubby legs will be camouflaged and it will look like i have no legs muahaha, look mommy it floats!

5) Pink Neon Tights

MEH someone pls just buy me this and my life will be quasi complete! T__T

6) SF IV

whaaaat? >=(

lol this is like mondo outdated but i don't care =)
oh ps, if you wanna buy this for me, make sure you gimme a PS3 console as well x )
I've wanted the game for like a super long time but my dad die die don't wanna get a PS3 for me T___T
I grew up playing SF with my cousin :)
I miss those days.

7) Shopper's Drug Mart Giftcard

Omg someone pls gimme a shopper's gift card plox plox plox.
I would like spend the wholeeee day there, splurging on either cosmetics, beauty products or hair products. ♥

Meh I still have a long list to go (moo greedy like a llama T__T sorry i can't help it k), but then I don't wanna come off as a greedy pig, so that is all for now =)
Will update when I am ready to present you with the rest of my wishlist muahaha.

OH Wait before I go, one more crucial one.
If you don't wanna get any of the awesome goodies above, please please consider this one please.
It doesn't cost much, and plus it will make me very super uber happy and +10000 points to our friendship level meter x )

Important + Crucial + Life-Changing

8) BASMATI RICE !!!

I swear this is like the best rice ever i love it so much and I can spend the whole entire day eating it alone maaaaan i love it. Buy a pack of basmati rice for me and i will be your manslave for the rest of the year :)~~~ drooldrool.

so yea. there you have it.
my christmas wishlish 2009 edition.
So now you know what to do wuahaha >=)

kkthanksbai ♥

Deliciously Ridiculous ♥

2009-11-18T10:58:00.004-05:00

Okie so I know I've been an emo turtle in the last few entries. But no more for now. :)

Instead of wallowing in pessimistic thoughts and letting my teen angst slowly turn me into an emo banana, I have decided to focus on prancing on the brighter side of life (muahaha so deep like the Pacific ocean).

So yeah.

These few days I have been running into a series of mildly unfortunate events (which some people find amusing when i tell them about it -___-)

I started training as a cashier in Sobeys about a week ago, and boyyy, my head is going to burst from memorizing all the codes.
omg and you know how when you go to supermarkets, you hear people paging someone else over the uhh PA system? xD
Like... "Leo to customer service, Leo to customer service" etc ?

Yeah. So Curtis (dude that was training me), he had to get someone to our counter, and so he had to page the person. Being the awesome trainer he is, he then decided to let me try broadcasting my sexy voice all over the store. And so I did. =)
I was supposed to pick up the phone and say "xxx, override to counter 8" or something like that... So then I picked up the phone and blanked out.

I said: "Hello... ?" i couldn't hear myself so I continued with a "Um Can you hear me? Ok good, um, override to cashier uhh *checks counter number* 8 please" >___<
And Curtis started laughing his head off. And he was like...
"Omfg you were SOO baaaad. Of course I could hear you. The whole store heard you!"
T_____T

Then when I was rushing into the store, I didn't see where I was going and stopped right in front of a pink baby (I say pink cuz she was wearing ALL pink omg cuteness overload). And she fell down butt first >__<
The poor thing didn't cry, but looked all around her with a lost puppy look in her huge gorgeous eyes. Which made me feel even worse ><
I almost picked her up but her mom came in time to rescue the baby from the clutches of a cannibalistic baby creeper. Meh T___T

OMFG you know how guys these days love lowriding and showing off their beautiful panties?
Laik dis one (click plox I can't upload the picture cuz I'm in school)

So yesterday I was walking down the hallways with bart, you know, doing our thang, minding our own businesses... and then bart shouted at me to look at that. So i turn, expecting to see like, a fight between low-riding dudes or something... but... dun dun dunnnnn.
This dood was low-riding and had this smug, guai lan look on his face thinking he's so cool and all that and stuff. He was bending down, taking something from his bagpack, and GUESS WHAT dun dun dun. THERE WAS A GAPING HOLE IN THE MIDDLE OF HIS RED ~~PANTIES~~ BOXERS.

XD

Wuahaha. So since he was bending down, you could so see his left butt cheeek from outer space! xD And the flesh was threatening to burst out any second.
And he didn't know any better.
He stood back up and started striding down the hall , still acting cool and all.
I felt a bit bad for the guy, but the evil sadistic humour of it smote my conscience and got the better of me :)
I hope someone told him though x )
Wuahaha he's lucky it wasn't that Facebook "Grab An Ass Day" or he would've lost his left butt by now.

Baha you science people would have known that when praying mantis(es?) copulate, the female bites off the male's head right ? lmao the price of being horny. (but apparently losing his head while mating [literally] increases his sexual performance o_o)
Interesting right? Too bad I'm not smart enough to be a zoologist T___T
Ya so in the realm of praying mantises, can I safely assume that the gay mantises are the longest survivors then? :o - - > serious question i am not kidding around. >=(

Wow it's 10:52 already. How fast.
bell's gonna ring for lunch in a few minutes.
Fatty senses are tingling alreaaady.

p/s: omg I had the weirdest dream ever last night.
So i saw a rainbow right, and it was a perfect one. Full arch, all 7 solid beautiful colours, basically perfect. And I took a picture of it. And the perfect rainbow immediately started to wiggle and then it became all crooked and broke into half ! o_o

Then this guy from my school (Alex Lun, for those of you who know him, ya so random right, i don't even talk to him anymore lol) appeared and said in an all-knowing voice:
"This is why people cannot take pictures of rainbows"
WTF.

stop the train pls

2009-11-17T23:27:00.001-05:00

Okay no more emo posts for now =)
Too many people close to me are going through tough times.
Imma be strong for you guys ♥

So i actually have several super funny stories to share but i can't blog right now cuz I have a math test on Thursday and my math mark is friggin dismal right now T__T
So yeah I have to go nerd and pls pls check back soon. I wanna share the funniness all around, its so ridiculous xD
See you in a bit? Wish me luckk ttyl beautifuls ♥

efff mai laif

2009-11-16T02:45:00.001-05:00

This is going to be a depressing post.
Don't say I didn't warn you.
You still have time to x off this page and save yourself from being affected by depressing emantings (emo+ranting muahaha random self-created word).

It's 11:59 right now oh wait it just turned 12 -____-
Ugh I am still working on my World Issues Annotated Bibliography yet I am in no fucking mood to finish it.
Honestly I am so disgusted with myself.

I had the whole entire Saturday to finish it up, but I chose to loaf around and be emo.
Really, I don't get myself sometimes.
I was so emo about the whole university applications/results yet I chose to rant and rant about it instead of studying to better myself -____-

I had a mental/emotional breakdown while ranting to my parents about my math mark.
It was frustration initially. Then it turned to rants about how unfair the world is; about how for some people, things just come to them so easily like this *snaps finger* while some have to slog and slog and pray and wish and slog some more to get where they are (aka me).

Then that discontentment led to me wondering about the fate of the people in third world countries where little babies have to starve and suffer. Which led to me doubting God (T___T sigh sorrry God i was having a tough emo day) and I started to bawl my eyes out at the unfairness of it all. Some horrible memories which I desperately want to forget all came gushing back to me and it made me cry some more, because it's just so unfair.

And then I started thinking about how so many people I care for have been through alot of trying times and have been discriminated for who they are/what they do... and how my parents weren't born rich and when they painstakingly finally built a comfortable life of their own, they willingly chose to let go of everything and move all the way to Canada because of our education. As if having to abandon his comfy position as a highly manager in Malaysia and start off from scratch here is not enough of a blow to him, my dad (and mom) had to endure so many trials and tribulations just to settle down in this "Land of Promises".

We got betrayed by our only relatives here those motherfucking two-faced backstabbers.
It was in the middle of a bitter freezing December when we got "kicked out" of the house. Having nowhere else to turn to, my parents had to go looking for apartments (we couldn't afford the houses in Oakville, too expensive) every single effing day while my siblings and I waited in the car, chilled to our bones by the unforgiving cold.

We finally found an okay apartment (I gagged and teared several times when we had to clean it up because omfg there were random brown yellow stains everywhere i really don't wanna know what the fuck they are, and clumps of disgusting hair in drawers like wtf fml) and it turned out to be haunted (i'll save this story for another entry) but whatever. At least we were away from those backstabbing bitches plus the ghosts didn't bother us so its fine.

I am pretty contented with where our lives are right now, but still. The remnants of those scattered memories (i have SO many shitty melancholic stories wtf but im not going to torture the few of you still reading this) still sometimes come back to haunt me and I just breakdown. I do appreciate all the awesome things I have in life and I have to admit that compared to a lot of people, I am very blessed. But still, when those memories just re-surface, or when I hear about depressing stuffs, I just.. can't help it.

Daddy says that I think too much and that sometimes I should think more about myself (but i think i am selfish what is he talking about) and he told me to go volunteer in UNICEF so I won't feel so helpless when I hear about those people suffering in 3rd world countries.
I'm thinking about it, but not right now sigh. Right now I am supposed to be working on something that is due tomorrow but I am not even close to finished >___<
Which brings me right back to my whole issue of my procrastination = my self disgust.

Really, JiLien, you could be all comfy in your warm, soft bed right now.
But you chose to pull a failed Mother Teresa slash Emily the Strange slash Iris (this emo cyclop girl from Ruby Gloom) when you could've finished the fucking assignment.
Serves you right, dumbass.

Okay so I have to rush already holy shit it is 2.33 fuck this shit.
And noo I didn't take 2 hours to write this entry -____-
I just wrote halfway and continued assignment/check facebook/twitter/get distracted/emo a while/etc etc and yeah you get my point.

Sorry this isn't one of the sunshiney, prancing unicorns type of entry guys. :(
I know many of you are feeling uber shitty as well. I wish I could cheer you guys up and make you feel better... But I'm sorry. I can't.
I can't pretend like I'm happy right now, because i'm not.
Hopefully you'll find solace that you're not alone in your misery (and to those happy people out there right now, wtf are you doing here you should be practicing singing with sunflowers and brushing your unicorn's tail not wallowing in my sad emo blog right now)

Ok back to my assignment I really have to finish it kay.
See you guys soon and hopefully my next entry will be a happier one.
I hate emoments, which have been increasing alarmingly lately wtf.

p/s: omg baby is sickkk. sigh more shtuff to emo about. wuawua w/e. imma make like chicken soup for him except I dunno how to x ) sigh failllll.
going to visit him tomorrow, hopefully that will make me feel better (yn) ♥

sorry if this post didn't make sense (yeah grammar/spelling/vocab/logic fail) i was randomly typing everything that came to my head andI barely even used the backspace key cuz yeah i'm so moody and i have like the dumb thing to finish >__<

sigh back to work kbye

gurgle gurgle

2009-11-10T14:14:00.005-05:00

Camwhore mateys of mine would probably have noticed that one my favourite/trademark pose is the pigmouth/goldfish :o

With Jihyun circa October'07

I miss her

sigh. good times ...

Not twins :)

Previous Facebook profile pic x )

Webcamwhoring ♥

Yeah anyways.

I love it when guys see pictures like these and go "loll how do you do the whole... mouth thing?" And i show them. And they attempt it. And it kills me xD. Cuz it is sooo funny to see guys do it.

So yeah, now imma show you something that will change your life forever :)

Goldfish Origins: Porkin
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tadaaaaa, am a natural =P

Abusive from the very beginning muahaha >=)
Wuahaha I was a fat baby eh.
I think I was quite an ugly child. Hairless and man-like (I honestly didn't look like a female baby until I was like... 3 or 4, when my hair finally started to grow T__T)

But still.
I would totally creeper-stalk my baby-self >=)
Because I think fat babies are uber kawaii.
*cue diabolical laughter*

Oh by the way.

This winter, I am going to attempt to paint the snow.

With a myriad of flying colours. :)

Pink being the central theme :P

*excited*

Ohhhh while we are on the topic of painting snow, have any of you guys ever used glow in the dark paint? :o

I really really really really really really really really really really want to get some and like.. play with it.

Imagine the fun you could have with glow in the dark paint!

omg i am hyperventilating just thinking about how much fun i could have.

So like. If someone pisses you off (or if you just wanna have some harmless fun), dip your hand in the glowinthedark paint and wait in a dark room. Get another friend to lure him/her into the room room and all he/she will see upon entering the room is a glowing hand flying towards him/her in slapping motions muahaha. >:D

*******
I was too sleepy to finish this entry last night.
Imma continue it right now.
In school. 8)
Came to school only during lunchtime because I was feverish this morning.

**minor sidetrack** Omg you know how in books, the person "Woke up with a start"?
Whenever I read something like that, I always have the image of someone jumping up in their sleep or their eyes just flicking open in horror. And i thought it was funny.
But last night , I had one of those thingies omg.
I dreamt that i was randomly walking in front of a pack of werewolves (or was it yetis wtff?) and one of them just lunged at me.
And I actually jumped in my sleep. And my eyes flew wide open (not that it can go very wide) in horror.
And all I could think of was.. "omg if this was a storybook, the author would write that i woke with a start."

Kay back to whatever I was talking about.
I digress too much. Alot of times I will have this long train of thought, and then some random lame stuff would just... jump queue. >=(

Gets annoying sometimes, when I am thinking about some deep philosophical shit and then suddenly Charlie the Unicorn pops up in my brain. >____< bs.

Data teacher isn't here. :/
So yeah.
I look like a loser right now, thick-ass scarf and tear-stained cheeks and all.
Ugh.
ehh why did i come to school.
For some reason, the kitkat bar in front of me right now doesn't seem to be making me feel any better. :/
This sucks can you guys pls share some lame jokes (in the comments section) so i can have something to laugh at later ?

Omg I have one.
Are you ready are you ready are you ready ? *excited*

Kay, so how do you get Pikachu to get on the bus?
okie guess! x)
You Pokemon!!!!! (poke-him-on, geddit?) !!LOLLLL.
Highlight to see the answer wuahaha. XD

Why is it so freezing cold in here.
I wanna go home and drink mushroom soup T____T

Ya I think my nose is starting to run.
imma go ~~catch it back and fry it~~ blow my nose.
kbye.

p/s: remember the lame jokes plox 8)
p/p/s: Gah sesame street is still hanging around (literally) google. Pissing me off, it's been there for like what a weeek now?

Now I have the Elmo's World Song stuck in my head >__<
Clickk it and go watch it! lemme try to spread it to you too i don't wanna be alone in this.

i am a creepy child stalker

2009-11-08T23:33:00.002-05:00

Woot, went to visit University of Waterloo yesterday.

I love it there.

I am very enticed by their Arts & Business program ♥

The Honors Arts program sounds very promising too *scratches head*

Hmmm I wonder if i should take -

*giddy-up U-turn*

You are not paying to hear me rant about my post-secondary worries ;)
$$ kaching $$

I am in no mood to write anything today. So uhm. I'll just post pictures and post captions okie?
Okie good.

Creeper picture taken by daddy.

Ippy, KT, me (baha stumpy legs) & soulmatey Bart.

See the construction site thingies we are walking towards to ?

We heard Godzilla roar from somewhere inside there.
True story.

I think he was constipated and got a weeee bit frustrated.

Asians on campus 8)

No shushh my eyes are not closed.

Everything you see is an illusion.

Another creeper picture. :D
I love this though. It's so peaceful and pretty ♥
Lemme just get someone to photoshop a rainbow and a few unicorns and some singing sunflowers in it and it will be picture perfect :D

SIGH I know, I told him the geese were innocent too.
But too bad he couldn't control his bladder.

Couldn't hang up when nature called.
Excuses!

No shush I am not the only one stuffing my face.
Everything you see is an illusion.

Teehee saw this supa adorable baby.
Took a picture.
Got yelled at for being such a creeper :) ♥

In other random unrelated news,
Look mommy! Upside down!

That is not me. It is ...uhm.... you.

This is a terribly embarrassing picture and it makes me cringe to see how much you look like a potato... I feel sorry for you T__T

Yay Lucky, love of my life ("v")

He looks so peaceful here.

Domi I am going to abduct him one day ♥

Oh yea omgomgomg today i went to Costco and I saw this fat cute baby and he was ~~frowning angrily~~ looking straight at me and I couldn't help whipping out my cell and taking a picture.

Hm will I get arrested for creep-stalking a baby?

He looks angry xD

Isn't he adorable!

Irresistible right?

Whatever arrest me I don't care. As long as you guys visit me ~~and bring your baby sister/brother wuahaha~~, I will be content =)

New Moon is coming out! *pees myself in excitement*

I am excited.

People have been pissing me off bad these few days.

No one in particular, just... people in general.

Kay I need to pee really bad I've been holding it for a very long time I cannot hold it in anymore mmkay be right back imma go answer nature's call, its ringing very loudly and the ringtone sucks why do people have to pee its so annoying and takes up so much time

Okay I am back x )

Wow I can't believe I wrote this whole long paragraph ranting on something that is pissing me off/affecting me and deleted it almost immediately because I think it's a bit too private.

What a waste of time.

Darn you pms.

I have no mood whatsoever to continue this entry anymore.

Sorry guys. T__T i promise i will return to original soon.

Then I will compensate with a normal, happier post ^^

But for now... fml.... i need some kitkats to make me happy again

sigh ='(

我想你只想找个替代

我想你忘了什么是爱

Lusty

2009-11-04T21:52:00.016-05:00

disclaimer: this post is dedicated to bart&domi cuz i love them and i hope the bs-ness of this entry will cheer them up =D ♥

Soulmate bought me a mood ring. :) :) :)

I have a love-hate relationship with the thing.

It is quite accurate and its fun! But whenever I wear that bastard, I am always exposed >=(

Purple is lusty/tiko/horny.

Just remember that throughout this post =)

Actually the real thing is "romantic" hokaaaay.

But Bart corrupted it and turned it to lusty.

Kay. So storytime.

So during Math, I had to pee badly.

I checked the ring. It was yellow-ish green, which meant restless/active x )

So I marathon-ran to the toilet and y'know, answered nature's call. (wtf why do they call it nature's call anyway! Isn't is supposed to be your bladder calling? Meh)

Woot relieved.

After the waterfall, I checked the ring muahaha. Surely it has to be blue (relaxed) now.

BUT NO.

PURPLE. bs!

KAY wtf lol who gets horny after potty break?? **lol i can almost hear the chorus of people shouting my name at this point, shushhhhhh you don't see me spilling your dirty little secrets >=(

But I need to complain.

Everytime I put it on, it changes to purple like... immediately. wtf.

Other people get blue, yellow, torqoise, etc. But I get purple all the time.

Injustice.

Teehee tried again at home.

Quite random.

this is for my soulmate & my boyfriend cuz they are feeling a bit off today & I hope the sheer stupidity of this will cheer them up teehee ♥

Wow. That. Was. So. Lame.

lol there must be something wrong with it though. the ring i mean.

It is almost accurate for everyone except me ~~because I am lord of the rings~~ :/

Oh btw, today I saw this car!

It was a tiny car (i dunno what brand la im a motor-noob) and guess what the car plate said ?! xD

"THE SNAKE"

bahahaha.

It looked nothing like a snake. First impression when i saw it: a beaver 8)

Okay now for my daily dose of much needed humour :)

This dude was walking in front of me in school today and holy, he was sooo slow pls.

So i walked a bit faster, and accidentally stepped on the heel of his shoe T__T

He stumbled a bit. I felt a bit bad but I was secretly glad cuz maybe that would wake him from his sleepwalking.

BUT NO. He walked ever slower! >=( I think its cuz his left shoe heel was like bended/folded in because of my fat leg.

Then I grunted and walked a little faster... and accidentally stepped on his other foot -___-''

Not on purpose, i swear! T__T

He stumbled again. Now both shoes were demented. He began to walk like a duck.

I walked past him.

I said sorry.
I did feel bad okaaaay T_T

Digressing.... a few of my chinese friends and I were talking about chinese ghosts today.

We were talking about how scary chinese ghosts were compared to white ghosts x)

But its true right??? Its always the asian scary movies that scare the shite out of peoples. :D

And Eason (oh lmfao) said... "Yeah Chinese peoples are vicious, after dying they're like... 'I have to come back to eat my dog first'"

LOL XD

I was in a female washroom stall and I heard someone peeing in the next stall. And i laughed. I actually laughed out loud =x

It was so embarassing >____<

Cuz like. The sound of her answering nature's call was very hilarious.

It was like...trickling...It sounded musical. It was funny.

But I had to run out of the stall, wash my hand super fast (I sanitized it after) and ran out of the washroom cuz I was scared whoever was in that stall would come out and slap me.

LOL my mom tried on the moodring.

She got purple too x )

Mother: What does purple mean?

Me: Horny

Mother: *indignant* What! You Simply Talk! I was never honny! (yeah that was how she said it, without the R)

LOL.

Post Halloween

2009-11-02T23:20:00.009-05:00

Teehee Halloween '07

lol so fat. x )

Brings back memories. Both pleasant & unpleasant. Oh well thats life.

*emo for a while*

Ok done emo-ing, shuffles on*

Yeah the mommy forced me to use that red chinese-y bag to treat or treat that year.
eh >_<
So tiny where can fit enough candy T__T

The level of asian-ness of it is like... max.
( ♥ )

***

- mmkay end of walk down memory lane -

(lols the lane got closed cuz of h1n1 xD)

It's that time of year again.

That time where I let it all go and gorge myself on all the awesome candies from Halloween.

Really.

Who can resist all those KitKats ?Like, are you crazy!

If i were to be stuck on an island with only 3 things... those 3 things would be...

1) Kitkats !! ♥ This is counted as one because... One big box of Kitkats x ) Counted, right ? :)

2) Someone close to me (muaha I cannot stand loneliness, emphasis on the cannot, cannot i tell you cannot cannot cannot T_____T)

3) Pads/Tampons (preferably those huge-ass night safe pads)

Well I don't use tampons but really when you're stranded on a deserted island, you can't afford to be picky right?

And... I find it funny how most people don't include pads/tampons in their top 3 stranded island must-have lists lo! I mean for girls anyway.

Like. Hello, miss.

I know you love your cellphone/ipod/lipgloss/magazines and all, but really... when ~~you have period blood spurting everywhere~~ ahem, Mother Nature is here with her monthly gift (LOL cue the annoying tampax commercial), would you still have the mood to text? -_____-

Plussss, I don't think there will be network on a deserted island. Or anything to charge your phone with. So yeah. See. Wouldn't sanitary pads be a more practical option muahaha i win.

Kaay I admit that that was quite disturbing. I am sorry to the guys reading this I hope you are not traumatized..yet.

Anyways.

Back to stuffing my face with potato chips.

What, they're all lying there in that box. Why let it go to waste ;)

Oh man. It's so unhealthy and I know I always always put on weight after Halloween one.

But... I can't stop : (

Sigh I guess I am a fattie fattie two by four,

Can't fit through the kitchen door xD

T_____T

p/s: Most people who get braces usually find themselves losing weight but for me its the exact opposite !!! GAK how depressing.
p/p/s: I am pumped to see how I look post-braces ♥ but that might be in a while : (

Random Rant

2009-11-01T23:34:00.001-05:00

How dense can some people get?

How can you "like" it when someone breaks up?

Geeeez.

If you really wanna respond to it so much, maybe go like...

"Aw feel bad for you bro" or like.. "Cheer up homie. Her face was asymmetrical anyway" or even "His armpits smell sour, get over him" .

But to "like" it ?? That's so insulting.

Its like... "I like that you've broken up, matey. I feel happy"

stooopod.

Yeah okay so I am making a huge deal out of it, but when i saw it, i was just like... o_o wtf and i just had to rant about it >:(

Facebook has got to create a "dislike" button before some idiot goes and "like" someone's status that says... "My pet beluga just died. RIP" or something. -____- (really i wouldn't be surprised if someone actually did that)

Okayy pointless rant over.

I really need to get something off my chest but I think it is too private to blog about.

So right now I have writer's block and I dunno what to blog about.

I would totally blog about Balloween, but then I stupidly forgot to take anyyy pictures wtf!

I just noticed through my peripheral vision that I spelled halloween with a B -___- but too lazy to go back up to change it moodless bleh.

Here's the one miserable picture that I took after I came back from the party. And it is of such crappy quality that you can't even see the huge zit I had on my right cheek -__-

That thing had a life of its own! >='( - - > *lol crying angry tears

Teehee doesn't it look like that Canadian goose (is it a Canadian goose ?? o_o) thingy is trying to attack my head? x )

I don't feel like going to school tomorrow.

I wanna bury myself in my soft bed covers and hibernate until ~~next Halloween~~ Christmas comes *yeeee presents muahaha* ♥

Okay I am like.. exhausted. Gonna sleep. Will blog properly when I shake off this stupid writer's block thingy.

Hopefully I'll have something quirky to laugh and blog about by tomorrow :D

Don't like feeling blocky.

kbyenightz.